Rebuilding our love

Chapter 1

  Right now I am standing in the centre of the hall at Goenka hall. I feel so tired,drained,lost all hopes completely and most of all a feeling of fear. Fear that he might not listen to me and force me out. Fear that his love for me has long extinguished. That fear is gripping my heart and making my state more miserable. Swarna Ma was standing in front of me. Her entire aura was radiating hatred towards me and she didn't need to speak for me to understand that. She was just seething in anger looking at me. I pitied her to be frank. The death of her long lost child must have been traumatic and heartwrenching for her but blaming me for a crime i had never done was so infuriating. Now I no longer saw the woman whom I had once accepted as my mother. Instead all that stood their was a woman whom had lost a son and in need of revenge for her son's death.
     I knew i was no longer welcome here but I needed to try for one last time, just to reduce my guilt in the future. The guilt that our relationship has gone haywire and I hadn't tried enough. She was literally screaming at me, shouting blasphemy, blaming me continuously and was asking to me to get out of the house. But i wasn't stepping out of the house unless i see him and get to know what he feels. I turned a deaf ear to what Ma was saying and started shouting his name. "Kartik,Kartik..". "Why waste your energy shouting out his name, he doesn't want to see you. Even if he does come out , i know what his answer will be. You are now completely out of his life Naira. You no more have a place in his heart nor do you deserve my son. He hates you, really hates you from the bottom of his heart. All the love he had has turned to hate Naira,just pure hatred" said Ma furiously. "Ma, i know this is just the hate for me coming out of your mouth. I know Kartik can never hate me as much as you say he does. I just want to talk to him for a last time. Please.." I cried and pleaded with her. Then he walked in. My Kartik. He was looking so wrecked up. I could my state reflecting in him.He walked like a robot , no life in him. He came stood next to Ma and started to speak. "Naira, didn't you hear what Ma said. All of it is true. Don't you believe it or will you only believe if I say it directly out of my mouth?? Don't you still get it? You killed my brother and I hate you so much for that. I wish i never get to see you again and I don't feel like even speking your name out loud. That's how much i hate you Naira. Get that into your mind.Please get out of my life for the last time" and pleaded me with hands raised. I couldn't believe what I had just heard and stood rooted to my place. Then Kartik started walking away and i just limped after him a screaming out,"Kartik, Kartik,Kartik......"
  "Kaaaaaartikkkk" I screamed and awoke with a jolt. I was still shivering from the intensity of that nightmare. It wasn't the first time but everytime seems so real. Upon hearing me screaming Kartik who was sleeping next to me also awoke totally startled. "Naira, Naira are you all right?? was it a bad dream again?" he asked me so quietly. I could see the fear and concern in his eyes seeing me distraughted like this. I knew his heart broke bit by bit when i awoke with a nightmare each night, shivering with fear and scared to hell. It's been only a few days since we resolved our differences and got back together. Everything wasn't a sweet fairytale once again. Every word we spoke, every action we did had so much thought going into it, to make sure not to hurt each of us. That is how it has been these past few days. " Kartik, you are next to me only right?? You are with me right? You love me so much no Kartik? You will never leave again na??" I blabber incoherently to him just to seek his reassurance. I knew it was just a stupid dream but since what happened these 2 years, every little thing is so hurtful. I could see tears just waiting to fall out of his eyes looking at my state. I know he is trying to blame himself and just burdening him with these thoughts. But he brushed away his tears and put up a brave face just for my sake. "Naira I am not going anywhere. I am right next to you and will be with you henceforth every second of my life. I love you so much and will never you alone again" he said just to reassure me. He knew he need not say this to prove but just for the sake of my peacefulness he will say it even a million times. "But Kartik, what if Ma??.... You hate me ??... Ma hates me no... What if?? What if?" i went on blabbering nonsense. It is just I feel so disturbed and want to get it all out of my system. "Naira, calm down Naira" Kartik tried pacifying me but I went on and on." Kartik you don't hate me na??Kartik,What if....." and my further rant was cut off by Kartik smashing his lips on mine. For a second I was taken aback by his sudden action but later I just gave in. The soft feeling of his lips on mine and the way our lips moved hungrily wanting to devour each other. He was pouring everything into this kiss, his love , his assurance and I knew that. His hands cradled my face as he hungrily kissed me for a long time . I too responded with the same vigour and love. We didn't know how long we went on but finally came up for breath. Our foreheads inclined towards each other, both of us feeling breathless from our kiss. Kartik took my face in his hands and said " Baby I am not going anywhere anymore. I am gonna stay with you till my last breath and even if you chase me out sherni, this mendak will come jumping back to you. Get that??" he said , lightly smiling at his last sentence. He then placed a soft kiss on my forehead and then I immediately threw my arms around him and hugged him tight. " I love you Kartik..so much that it literally kills me being away from you" i whimpered into his tshirt. He lightly carressed my hair and said" Love you more sherni, I ain't doing the same mistake twice of being away from you. Don't think I would be alive for the second time" he whispered quietly. Then with me still in his arms, he laid down on the bed . Finding peace in his arms and getting strength from his presence, I finally dozed off to sleep.

Hey readers. So this is the new story I had mentioned earlier. Seeing many kinds of post leap stories, i also thought of giving it a try. Hope i did some justice and you guys like it. Keep supporting guys!!