The life of a hockey girl

Chapter 11

Chapter 11

     Ian texted me and told me Chris was coming. When I asked him why he said that he wanted to know why I was quitting the team. I had to come up with an answer and fast, he’d be here any minute. Five minutes passed and there was a knock at my door. I couldn’t just pretend I wasn’t home now.

     When I opened the door he smiled and said hi. Then he got right to business handing me my jersey and socks. “ I believe these are yours.”

     “ No, I’m not playing anymore.” I replied trying to sound calm like everything was cool and I didn’t want to play.

     “You can’t quit in the middle of the season. It’s a rule, it’s not fair to anyone. Play till the end of this season and if you still want to quit then fine but don’t leave us now, we need you.” Was he begging me?

     “I’m sorry Chris but I need to focus on my riding After that little mishap with Blue Jeans I realized that I really need to focus on my horses and my riding abilities, not some stupid hockey team.” I saw the anger in his eyes.

     “You didn’t think it was stupid last week. Is this because I got hurt? I’m fine Kaylee! I got angry because I thought you were hurt and I lost it and got myself hurt.” The anger faded and he looked like he regretted saying it. He couldn’t meet my gaze anymore. “Please stay...” He begged.

     “Look I would love to stay but I can’t, I just can’t handle it anymore.”

     “Please, they need you... I need you...”

     “No you don’t, you’ve got Lily.”

     “What? Did she tell you that? There’s nothing going on there, our parents are friends so I have to be nice to her. She’s not the one I like.” He replied rather confused.

     “Can you please just go, I don’t want to talk about this anymore. I’m not coming back.” I began to close the door but he stepped inside, shutting it behind him. “I’m not leaving until you say you’re coming with me.”

     “Why would I come with you?” I asked incredulously.

     “To get to practice, why else?” He retorted. I hated him, I really wanted to go with him and I really wanted to get on the ice but I couldn’t just give in. Then again that would be letting Lily win, if I left the team I wouldn’t be in the way of her getting to Chris. I couldn’t give in to him either though, if I came back it couldn’t be because of him.

     “I’m not going to the practice. Practice is for people that are actually on the team. Shouldn’t the captain be there?” I shot back at him.

     “The captain is trying to get an important member of the team to come back.” i couldn’t help but giggle at him talking in the third person. “There we go now come on, coach is gonna be pissed at you for being so late.”

     “I-I can’t. I don’t want to face everyone after this whole scene. I just don’t want to do it anymore. Why can’t you understand that? Please just go.” I said sounding defeated.

    “I really need you to understand that i can’t go back there without you. What will our team become if we don’t have our goon?” He playfully punched me in the arm.

     Sometimes I feel like Chris is clueless, how did he not realize that he is the issue. “You guys are pretty rough out there without me. Seriously just leave. i don’t have time for this anymore. I’ve gotta go tack Blue up. you know where the door is.” I said gesturing to the door and turning away.

    He did something I never expected him to do. He grabbed my waist with one hand and pulled me in facing him, cupping the other around the back of my neck. He pulled me in and kissed me. His lips were soft on mine, it felt right like they were supposed to be there. But it wasn’t right, it shouldn’t be happening. My team captain who was trying to get me to come back was now kissing me. I know I like him but I can’t date a teammate, it’s just not right.

     I put my hands on his chest and pushed him away. He frowned, “Oh, I understand. I just thought that... I guess I was wrong...”

     “Where the hell did you learn that it was ok to kiss teammates? I mean you want me to come back so you kiss me! You think I’ll come back just because you kissed me?” I was kind of mad now. I had Chris Antrois at my door step wanting to kiss me, begging me to come with him and I’m pushing him away? I must be crazy!

     “I’m sorry, I thought you felt the same.” I can’t believe I’m going to do this, I must be out of my mind.

     I wrapped my arms around the back of his neck, pulled him in and kissed him again. He quickly snaked his arms around my waist and pulled me in closer. When the kiss broke I said, “I do.” I then added “I’ll come back to hockey but this never happened got it? When I come back the team is going to think that Ian and Anthony convinced me to.”

    “Alright,” He answered then added, “but can we do that again?” He gave me a cheeky smile and held me so close our noses brushed.

     “I think we better not.” I responded pulling away. “ Now go back to practice and tell them I wasn’t home. I’m serious, I’ll come back but I can’t date a teammate.”

     He sighed and walked to his car barreling down the driveway and out of sight. I put my back to the door and slid down thinking about what had just happened. The boy of my dreams was just kissing me and practically begging me to be his and I refused. There has got to be something wrong with me!

     I did the only thing I could think of and I texted Autumn

Kaylee: Meet me at Starbucks in 10

Autumn: Why?

Kaylee: Don’t question just do, don’t worry, I’m buying

Autumn: K