Shadows

7.

'and then we kissed' i smiled to my 3 best friends sitting around me.

'you are seriously the luckiest girl in the world' Mike mumbled.

'how was it?' Alison smirked,

'amazing' I folded my hands together 'fantastic, mind blowing and on top of all so fucking hot'

'holy bikini bottoms' Sophie mumbled and I laughed.

'and then you?..' Mike asked,

'we kind of went out of the water, I got changed and he dried up in the back yard and we made out again when he left'

'you didn't bang' Sophie frowned

'nope' I shook my head.

'you are changing that boy Chrissy' Alison said and I rolled my eyes.

The bell than rang, I now had Math on my own. Yes it's torture.

'bye people, I will see you after class' I said and they nodded walking away.

I held onto the straps of my backpack while I walked though the hallways with a huge smile. when I turned around the corner I saw Blake walking with Branden and another friend, I can just say hi right?

I walked a bit faster so I was walking behind him.

'how was it yesterday with, what is her name again?' the other friend named Julian asked.

'Christina' Blake said and I smiled 'we banged'

Excuse me?

'what did you do?' Brandon smirked, that's not your business mister.

'everything' Blake smirked.

Who does he think he is? We only kissed.

'like P in V'

'and M on V and M on P' Blake kept smirking.

'Blake Bloomingdale' I then yelled, making the three boys turn around.

'Christina' Blake said obviously not expecting me.

Then I snapped, I raised my hand and hit his cheek as if my life depended on it. 'you deserve that dick' I yelled and ran away.

What the fuck? Why did he lie? did I fall for his trick? Was everything he said just a trick? Was everything a lie?

'sis' I heard and I turned my head to see my sister looking worried. I didn't say but she probably saw I was crying and ran with me outside.

'what happened?' she asked grabbing my shoulders and pulling me in a hug.

'Blake he-' I wanted to tell her but I was to out of breath.

'what did he do?' she asked putting my head in her hand forcing me to look at her.

'he lied' I mumbled not being able to control my tears.

'what the fuck did that son of a bitch lie about' she was now visibly mad.

'he told his friends that we fucked' I said in one breath

'did you?' she asked and I shook my head

'fucking bastard' she mumbled

'so I hit him' I said and a small smile appeared on her face.

'that's my girl' she pulled me in a hug and I scoffed. i was happy I slapped him, I have never done it before but he totally deserved it.

'Christina' someone yelled.

There is only one person that calls me that.

'fuck off Blake' I yelled back, burying my head in my sisters shoulder.

'please, just let me explain' he stopped in front of us.

'what's there to explain' I looked up letting Bella go. 'you lied to your friends to make you look cool or something'

'it's a boy thing' he whispered

'exactly so I will never understand but I don't want any part in it' I told him.

'please just give me one more chance' he basically begged me 'please'.

'no' I exclaimed 'you used me and I'm not the person to be used. I was stupid enough to fall for you knowing this would come out of it'

'please Christina just give me one second chance' he tried to grab my hands

'no' I yelled 'I'm not the person to give you second chances'

'please'

'you fucked with the wrong person Blake' I told him.

'I'm sorry' he mumbled and looked down. It was an ice cold silence, and this time it was uncomfortable. I was hurt and wanted to beat him up, but because he's way taller than me that was no option.

'you're a lying son of a bitch. I told you it was okay to be perfect and that you will be perfect for someone but trust me, if you keep playing this act you will never be perfect for anyone. I was a stupid bitch falling for the act and see where it got me, I don't even know you for a month and you already hurt me'

'I hurt you?' he mumbled

'yes you asshole, of course you hurt me. how would you feel if I went telling the school we had sex' I yelled 'wait don't answer that, of course you would like that because you're a fucking player who thinks sex is just sex. Well I don't Blake, I think it's special and it's something you share with someone you love. Not every girl in the school'

'I didn't do it with the whole school' he whispered

'even if you did it with more than 10 girls on this age, it's too much and you shouldn't use sex to make you look cool. Because it doesn't, it just makes you look like a stupid hot guy with not more than 3 braincells. And you're more than that Blake, you know that and I know that'

Why was I complimenting him? I'm mad at him

'I'm so sorry Christina' he tried to grab my hands

I pulled my hands back and looked in his eyes that where once again blank. 'whatever we had, it's over'

'no please Christina'

'you never wanted it anyway, so just leave'

'Christina I'm b-'

'she told you to leave' my sister stepped forward and slapped away his hand that was reaching for mine.

He then looked form Bella to me and left.

'I hate him' I whisper yelled under my breath

'me too babe' she pulled my in a hug once again. I didn't hug her back I just watched Blake walk away.

I hate him and he hurt me, but why do I still feel guilty?