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Chapter Thirty Eight

Yoongi's POV

By the time I had made it home, the cool air had settled and the wind didn't pick up. I practically dragged myself home. Every step was heavy and hard, the thoughts of what had just occurred weighing me down. 

Maybe I was being selfish the entire time. I had ignored Namjoon completely, and instead focused on myself. Perhaps me saying I was doing everything for Seon was a lie. I was doing it for myself, wasn't I?

I pushed the front door open, feeling the familiar disdain. This door was always difficult to push open but on this day I seemed to struggle. 

Before entering, I gave one last glance outside and shut the door, making sure to keep it unlocked. Something had told me not to chase after Seon. By the way her voice sounded, it was obvious she wanted to be alone for now. 

I couldn't blame her. I needed time to think, too. 

"Yoongi."

Behind me, sitting on the couch was Namjoon. Everyone else had dispersed, probably out trying to distract themselves or goofing off. 

It was just us two now. 

I knew we needed to talk, but looking at each other, I didn't know what to say. I felt shame. Hurt. Worried. 

"I knew you liked Seon," Namjoon's eyes seemed to grow intense. Was that disappointment or anger? I couldn't tell, but whatever it was, made me feel small. Namjoon had always been the only one to scare me a few times, and now seeing him so serious was more than frightening. 

But I couldn't tell him now that. 

"And I know you like Seon, too," I shook off my coat and hung it up, feeling his piercing gaze on my back. 

A sigh. 

I turned back to look at him. 

Neither of us were willing to move. I almost ignored him and went upstairs, but remembering how upset Seon was forced me to sit on the couch across from him. 

"Liked," he corrected. 

"What?" 

"I liked her," his intimidating front ended in front my eyes, his posture changing to looking defeated. "When I noticed how well you two were getting along, and how happy you've been lately..." 

"Wait, Namjoon, are you saying you're okay with it?" 

He paused to think. 

"I took time to get a new perspective. I tested a few things. I can admit I did have a puppy crush, wanting to be around her constantly and enjoyed her attention. But..." 

I stayed silent, soaking up his words and waiting. 

"I guess I had to accept reality. It was just a mere childish crush. If we were to start dating, it wouldn't last long," Namjoon shrugged, looking nonchalant but I could tell how much he had thought about it. "Plus, I could tell from the moment you elbowed her you guys would like each other anyways." 

"I feel like I've heard that before," I murmured under my breath but dismissed it. "Then what was this morning all about. 

He simply shrugged, but before I could say something he changed the topic. 

"Where's Seon, by the way? Didn't she go after you?" 

"Yeah, we ran into her parents-" his posture straightened, "but managed to slip away. She was really upset afterwards. Said she needed time to think." 

"We need to find her," he stood up. 

"No, not this time. I think she really needs some alone time now. You really think I'd let her go if I saw this as dangerous?" 

I sighed, "It's still daylight out. If she doesn't come home in an hour I'll go out looking for her. I'm sure I already know where she is, anyway." 

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a/n

whew im starting school soon. 

have alot to prepare for, especially the SAT and ACT. pray for me guys 

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