Not your average love story

Chapter 14

I had finally moved to my bed, but I didn't move after that. Not to eat, not to go to the bathroom I laid in bed all day, everyday. At night I barely got any sleep, but when I did it was because I cried myself to sleep. I laid there for about two weeks before my mom got worried and dragged me out to eat. She made blueberry pancakes, a few strips of bacon and gave me a three strawberries. I inhaled the food, like I hadn't eaten in two weeks, which I hadn't, after that I sighed and burped loud. My mom smiled and giggled a little, she new she hit me good. I smiled a little got up and slowly walked up stairs, I laid in bed and although I didn't cry, I laid there sad and lifeless. I didn't tell my friends, they all watched the news and found out what had happened, "technical difficulties" the reporter on tv said. "No one survived" he said. My girls stopped by once a week, they brought me cake, the only way to make me feel better was with food. Jarred stopped by every now and then, he didn't call or anything just showed up. He mostly just held me and let me get him wet with my tears, it was nice to have someone hold me and tell me everything was gonna be ok, even if I knew it was a lie. I hadn't cut yet even though I craved it. I lost track of how long I had gone without doing it. Laying there just staring at the ceiling, I could feel the heart break. There was actual pain in my chest I started sobbing. I screamed and screamed until my throat hurt, I yelled in pain as if I got stabbed in the stomach. I couldn't take this anymore I got up and walked to the bathroom. Searching though the drawers I grabbed my razors, I slid onto the floor and slid the cold razor against my skin. I did this over and over on both arms and legs, I didn't count how many times I just sliced. My legs and arms were covered in blood the cuts were deep and I got blood everywhere. I tilted my head back and grabbed the paper and pen I set down next to me, I wrote a note for everyone and signed it. I put it in my lap as the darkness consumed me, slowly then all at once this was it.