My Deadly Ice Queen (A munakata reisi x emotionless reader)Re-edit (Discontinue)

Chapter 9,I'm not weak so shut up

Tokaku pov
I walk out of the hospital and lean against the wall as I listen to music, 'why does she yell at me? what does it matter to them if I'm hurt? It my own problem not them, it my fault that I got hurt, because I let my guard down for a second. why did I let my guard down anyway?'

'Weak'

'Is it because I'm weak?'

'Yes you are'

'If I wanted to kill him I have to be strong.'

'Yes, strong is the only way you can survive.'

'Can I really kill him?'

'Weak pathetic useless worthless trash die garbage no one will care if you die monsters freak'

'why does pointless memory chose to resurface now.'

'weak'

'shut up'

'pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic weak pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic die pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic monster pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic worthless pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic'

'shut up'

'why do you bother to live monsters?'

'why do you bother to care?'

'monster'

'shut up'

'weak'

'I'm not weak so shut up'

I shoved those thoughts away as I slam my hand against the wall which was the hand that is injured making my hand bleed more, I ignore it and turn the volume up and close my eye and wait for the other. After a while the first person who walk out was Fushimi and he look angry for some reason and Munakata and Awashima walk out, I didn't bother to care why Fushimi is angry and we call a cab and after 5 hour of drive we arrive back at the hotel and I headed back to my room and went to the bathroom and bandage my wound 'I'm not weak' was my thought as I leave the bathroom not caring to clean my wound up properly.

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"What a pathetic and meaningless life, I do not need friends, there are unnecessary. Even if I didn't betray them they will betray me eventually and even they didn't betray me, eventually I will betray them. I treated life like a game cause it is one........