forever and always, e {c.h}

I

"It's absurd, actually, how our hearts just go out to this one person; this special person. We choose to put them before others, and sometimes not noticing how damaging it is to someone else."

-Ellery Davenport

Dear Calum Thomas Hood,

Hello. It's been months since I've written to you; I very much do miss it. Anyway, how's your life, Hood? I bet its great, having all these pretty girls, which have nothing wrong with them, like you. It sucks that you've moved on, and I was heart-broken knowing that I would probably never see your face again, not just because of the band and fame, Hood, because I am hardly living. You know that time, so long ago, when I came into your room crying, do you remember? I do, clearly. It's the day I found out I had lymphoblastic leukemia. Yes, I am just now telling you. I told you now because I didn't want you stressing about it, I didn't want you thinking you had to cure and\or save me. Oh, Cal, remember those days where we could tell each other everything, because I, Ellery Alexander Davenport, do; I remember it like it was yesterday. Now, those days are gone, and I thought you should know that I might fade away soon, I would be just another surreal memory; a rotting corpse 6 feet under the dirt. Hood, it has been getting worse, I can barely breathe half of the time. I'm hospital bedridden. I'm just a mess right now. Oh, do you remember that time where I said that same exact thing and you picked me up and threw me. Cal, those were my favorite days ever. We were young and carefree. Ah, those days are behind us, Hood. Now we're just boring almost adults. Anyways, I miss you; I really do. You meant so much to me, now you probably don't even remember my face, or remember how you used to call me "beautiful" or make me giggle when I was the saddest girl in the world. Oh, I am probably nettlesome to you, I apologize. Goodbye, Hood. I might never see you again, or maybe I will, but there's a slight chance you will recognize me from the countless beautiful, dimpled, starry eyed girls. Goodbye, I hope you remember me, or even us.

Forever and always,

E