Haikyuu x Reader Oneshots

Lucky To Love You (Sugawara Koushi x Reader)

A/N: Why does Sugawara have to be so freaking perfect??? I do not own Haikyuu, any of its characters, or the picture. Enjoy!

Soulmate AU: Soulmates can feel each other's emotions

'Koushi...'

Burying your face in your hands, you slid to the floor, releasing the tears you'd kept hidden all day. 

'Why? Why is it like this?'

You knew he'd be coming soon- there was no way he couldn't feel what you were feeling right now- but for now, you just wanted to be alone, free to release your sorrows without someone there to share the pain. 

'Why is someone like you stuck with someone like me?'

In this world, everyone had a soulmate, a single person out of billions who was meant to be yours. Until you actually met your soulmate, the bond that connected your emotions remained dormant, a missing piece not yet found. When you did meet your soulmate...there wasn't any other experience in the world like it.

For lack of better words, it was simply overwhelming.

You had no idea what you'd done to be so lucky as to have Sugawara Koushi, Karasuno's beloved vice-captain, as your soulmate. When you met him it was as if you'd been living your whole life without something you didn't know you desperately needed, the world only falling into place when warm, chocolaty eyes met your own. 

It took your breath away...he took your breath away. 

Meeting Sugawara was the greatest thing that had ever happened to you, but if meeting him was a dream, then this was reality.

Sugawara was...Sugawara, after all; handsome, amazing, and probably the sweetest person you had ever met. He was everything you wished you could be, everything you just weren't, and it tore you apart inside.

No matter how hard you tried to live up to him, nothing changed. He stayed out of reach, amazing as could be, while you stayed as plain and simple as ever. 

You knew Sugawara didn't think about you that way, reminding you every day how much he loved you and how happy he was to have you as his soulmate, but it was all too easy to compare yourself to him, to feel stuck in his shadow. 

Today was one of the times it hurt more than it usually did. Throughout the day, you found your gaze drifting to Sugawara, watching as he went about his daily life with his usual sunny disposition, dazzling everyone he met. He truly was loved by everyone he met. There was no way you could be like him though, and the thought brought tears to your eyes. 

Of course, Sugawara felt the change in your emotions immediately and had been looking for you all day. You could feel his worry growing as hours passed and he still didn't get so much as a glimpse of you. It was a wonder how you'd avoided him for so long, but you knew you wouldn't be able to hide any longer. Knowing him, he was probably headed to your house at this very moment, still dressed in his sweaty volleyball gear. 

Looking up at the ceiling, more tears escaped your stinging eyes. Feeling like less than your soulmate ached terribly, but what hurt more than anything was the fact that you'd made Sugawara feel awful too. Despite all of the pain and tears, you could sense how panicked he was, forced to feel everything you were feeling. What must he be thinking, being stuck with such an emotional soulmate?

Distantly, you heard your front door open and close, muffled voices conversing in indiscernible tones before hurried footsteps made their way up the stairs.

"(Y/n)?!" From the other side of the door, you heard Sugawara's breathless voice. "(Y/n), are you in there?! What's wrong?!" 

There was no point in lying to him and saying you were fine- he could sense that you were very much not fine, after all- but you didn't want to burden him with your insecurities any more than you already had. 

"(Y/n)?!" His voice rose and you felt his weight lean against the wooden panel. "(Y/n), please let me in! Tell me what's wrong!"

You couldn't take it, he sounded so desperate and scared. Reaching up, you unlocked the door and stood up, opening it. The moment it moved, Sugawara burst inside, his hands cupping your face as he looked you over. 

His emotions flooded over you; worry, fear, desperation, need- all of it washing over you and making your breath hitch. Watery brown orbs bore into your own swollen eyes and one arm wrapped around your waist, pulling you close as his other hand stroked your hair soothingly. 

"Please, please, tell me what's wrong, (y/n). You've been avoiding me all day and I just...I can't..." The usually cheerful man seemed to struggle for words as he held you tighter, his voice breaking. A new wave of tears filled your eyes and you buried your face into his chest, releasing everything. 

How had you ever thought that you could hide this from him?

"I-I'm nothing compared to you, Koushi! Nothing! You're amazing and wonderful and handsome and I'm none of those things!" Looking up at him with wide, tearful eyes you choked, "I don't deserve to have you as my soulmate! If it wasn't for the bond, you'd be completely out of my reach!"

Sugawara stared for a few silent moments as you buried your face in his chest once more, heart heavy and sad. Through the bond, you felt his sadness grow...along with something else, something warmer and brighter.

"(Y/n)...why didn't you tell me you felt like this earlier?"

"I don't know...I guess I didn't want to be a burden to you..."

"Oh, my love, you could never be a burden to me..." Leaning down, he began to press soft, adoring kisses all over your face. "How could I be out of your reach when I've been yours all along?" Gazing down at you, he smiled softly. "There's nothing to deserve. I love you and you love me and that's that."

"But I-!" He silenced you with a kiss to your lips, his mouth moving softly and lovingly against yours. 

Pulling away, Sugawara led you to the bed and tugged you down next to him. As you lay in his embrace, ear to his chest, the rhythmic thumping of his heart and the warmth of his arms around you had a calming effect, your sobs quieting.

"(Y/n), you have no idea how amazing you are. What I feel for you...it goes beyond the soulmate bond. I didn't fall in love with you because you're my soulmate, I fell in love with you because you're you." 

Myriad emotions swelled and roiled within as everything Sugawara felt for you poured into every fiber of your being. There wasn't a bit of disgust or disappointment, no, on the contrary it was all pure love, raw and powerful. Pride, adoration, lust- everything he felt towards you began with love. It almost felt impossible, how much he loved you.

"(Y/n), I'm the one who's lucky to love you."

Your tears renewed, this time with happiness, as a weight lifted from your shoulders. 

"You're so smart and beautiful and kind, I don't know what I did to be so lucky to have you."

Tilting your face up to his, you let your sadness and insecurities drown in your soulmate's endless love for you. Sensing the change, he smiled too, brown eyes relieved.

"I love you the way you are, (y/n)." Sugawara's own tears spilled over as you cupped his face in your hands and kissed him softly, releasing every bit of the love you had for this perfect man.

"I love you too, Koushi, more than you'll ever know." Kissing him again, you whispered sweetly against his lips, his strong arms holding you as close as possible. "Thank you..."

A/N: So...what do you think? Good? Fine-ish? Anyways, I hope you enjoyed it! Thanks for reading!