A love that could never be !!!!

Never meant for me

To the one whom I long to love,

So far away you always seem to be, even when you're right next to me. From the white on your teeth to the soles of your feet, every inch of you makes my heart beat times 3 and I just know that, that can't be healthy for me... Afraid to reveal my identity based off of thoughts I know you have planted in your mind; If only I could build up the courage to at least mumble "Damn boy you so fine". I once went through heartbreak and I promised myself never again, never again will I put myself in a position that might cause me to lose my sanity, all I want to do is win. Never again will I allow a man to tell me he loves me and I know he's pretend. To feel your arms around me while I rest my cheek on your chest and the top of my head meets your chin. To Netflix and chill, although I know the movie will never make it to the end. But you say I'm just a friend!

A power couple we could be if you just take the time out to get to know me. A side of me your brown eyes never looked to see. A love that could last forever, forgetting pain from both our past. Bitter, broken and bruised, usually described as the woman but in our case it just so happens to be you. Spiritually, physically, and emotionally with my mouth I shall make everything bitter into sweet. With my hands no matter how long it takes, on my knees I shall find every piece and mend the stray ends with a bit of me; everything broken will then be complete. Every bruise will fade away when we join together in heat and our soul meets. Yet I'm forced to stand by with a smile on my face as you introduce me to she, after she, after she, slowly taking each breath from me. Because you say I'm just a friend!

In the end I'll take one for the team. Ill push aside my selfishness and help you find the woman I long to be, whom in my mind will always be a reflection of me. Besides too much damage was done all of those times you confided in me. To have you caress me sinfully would be such a beauty. But again that's too much for just friends, although that's all that we could ever be! So I'll sip on my wine and turn up to the music's beat while I imagine me grinding slowly against your swollen meat. Whispering sweet nothings in my ear with words I realize could only be formed by the imagination of me. Slowly but surely I'll have you focus on me, I'll find a way to remove the shade blocking you from my ways you can't see. I'll put away my fears and pride cause a blessing I know this love could be.... If only those brown eyes were open wide so that you could see, that We are the perfect reflection of love , till you "hi friend" me, which never fells to snap me back to reality... The reality is WE WERE NEVER MEANT TO BE. So, far away you'll always be, even when you're right next to me!!!

                Jade Blaq