Nothing Left To Fear (Book 1 of 2)

Family Problems Uncovered

This chapter is a lot longer than the others but it's definitely necessary. Also, please be kind becasue the incident actually happened to me. Hope you like it:)

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Nathan’s POV:

 Yesterday night was the best night of my life, not just because that moment between Brianna and I, but because I got to know more about her. I didn’t know that she was still in college or that she studies dance, but I should’ve guessed. I wanted to know how she was gonna go to school and tour with us. I kept thinking about her college situation when I felt people staring. To my surprise, everybody was standing there taking pictures of me and Bri cuddled up on the couch. “Please don’t post those anywhere. I really don’t wanna deal with the media. Plus, I don’t want anything to happen to her. Ok?” they all nodded sincerely and then left. I hadn’t taken the time to realize how cute and peaceful she looked when she slept. I didn’t wanna wake her, so I just continued to lay there and think about everything that we talked about. Honestly, I was thinking about everything like: what happened between me and Bri last night, the tour, my family, the TWFanmily, and management.

Management was at the forefront of my mind. I started wondering what would happen if management thought that we were all getting too close with the girls and decided to hire new dancers. But I quickly shook that thought from my mind because then the guys and I would end up touring with a lot of anger. I know that management is just looking out for us, but sometimes I feel as though they want to control every aspect of our lives. Luckily, we had Jayne because she always voiced our concerns and as long as we had her, we had nothing to worry about. After worrying about management, I started to think about the TWFanmily. I felt as though they would never accept my girlfriend, whoever she was. I love the TWFanmily with all my heart, but I don’t wanna be single anymore especially when the girl I wanna be with forever is right in front of me. I feel like if they got to know Bri before we started to date, if we date, the Fanmily would be ok with it and accept her. Hopefully with time, Bri and I will begin to date and then I can tell the fanmily and they will love her just as much as I do. I know that the fanmily is just looking out for my best interest, and I’m grateful, but I feel as though what they think is best is different than what I deem best. Honestly, management and the fanmily were the two main things that concern me when it comes to relationships because they either wanted us to keep it a secret, break up, or hated on her until she broke up with me. I felt bad for my past girlfriends because they couldn’t handle all the hate and the media constantly being in her face. I just wanted a girl that could handle all that plus love me for me; and I think I may have found her. Brianna was that girl. She didn’t let anyone tell her what to do and she spoke her mind. There were so many special things about her and I really hoped that people would get to see that. But first, I had to know more about her, build a friendship, and then move towards a relationship. I felt like I could trust her and I hoped that she trusted me.

However, when we were talking last night, she kept dodging the family topic. I didn’t wanna push her into talking about it but I wanted her to be able to tell me everything. I thought that if I left the family topic alone, she would tell me when she was ready. I started to wonder what was so bad about her family that she didn’t want to talk about them. I mean it must be pretty bad if she doesn’t wanna talk about her family at all. But there was something else pressing on the front of my brain: the necklace she always wears. Brianna wears that necklace everywhere and I don’t know why. I was afraid that it was from and ex-boyfriend but I doubt she would keep that; plus she never talked about her past relationships. What if she still loved him and didn’t wanna be with me because of that? That couldn’t be the case, so I shook the thought from my mind. But I definitely wanted to ask her about the necklace because she rarely takes it off. I really wanna ask her about it but I don’t wanna upset her in the process. I know that girls look for jewelry that looks expensive but there was something different about this necklace because there was a number on it. 45. The number must’ve meant something because not only was it on her necklace but it was also one of her phone cases. I came up with so many ideas as to what the number could mean: sports number, lucky number, number of dance contests she’s won and the list goes on. It was strange because all of my ideas were positive because I didn’t wanna think the worst and be wrong. I decided to ask her about the number after our next week of rehearsal.