The Pastor's Daughter

CONFESSION #4

Confessions #4

Maybe I should have told everyone that day. What do you think? I knew my body was no longer concealing my secret. Even though people were not saying anything, some of them knew something wasn't right. Lust is something else. It's more destructive than a fire set ablaze in the forest. The fire will eventually settle once it has consumed everything, but lust grows, spreads, and possesses. Now I understand why my dad always says we must stay "prayed up" and flee also youthful lusts. They say your sin will find you and whatsoever is committed in darkness will eventually be brought to the light.

If you only knew the feelings soaring through my veins every time I stepped foot in the church! I tried to hide it for as long as I could, but it was killing me inside. I couldn't focus on any sermons at the church. Lust had possessed me and now it was transformed to hatred. I hate the supposed preacher for what he did to me.

He is supposed to be an example. I hope his wife leaves him and takes all of his money; maybe that will teach him. I hope he never gets to preach another time in my daddy's church. Now he is the perfect example of a hypocrite. Yep, now that I think about it, he is the biggest hypocrite I know. He took advantage of me. And this secret I'm carrying will be his just reward. I'm already thinking about getting him for child support. His wife, or should I say his soon to be ex-wife will take most of his money and I will take the rest. He will be broke, alone, and silenced in the church. He committed adultery, not me. I've made up my mind that the next time we are all at church, I'm going to stand up and give the church a testimony they will never forget.