You Flow Through Me [On Going]

Prologue

"Ready?"

Tumango ako.

"Okay. Let's start in three,two, one GO!"

"What up guys! Andito nanaman kami sa isang panibagong episode na aming inihahandog sa inyo at kung bago pa kayo sa aming channel, I'm Francis and this goddess lady beside me is my girlfriend, Threa"

Today we are filming a new episode for our fans in our youtube channel, actually it all started with just one funny video and we didn't expect to capture the hearts of the people. Within a year we already have two million subscribers kaya ang saya namin ng love ko.

"Now for more ideas my love will share it to you"

"So hi guys! I'm Threa. I have some ideas for the next video. First, lie detector challenge, second is the Q&A, and lastly would be the sharing of our journey together in the YouTube family. So these are the choices, we would like you to choose among these three choices that you like to be in the next video. That would be all and thank you"

"So guys boto na kayo! See you guys next week! Love takpan mo na in three, two, one"

"Cut"

I sighed. Napawi ang ngiti kong dinadala kanina habang nag fi-film, after the vlog we remained silent. I didn't expect this would hurt so much, I thought I can do it but well my heart is just so weak enough to handle this level kind of pain.

Well happiness always come, while sadness is preparing to come also. I hate myself for being not enough in his eyes, well at first I am not really valuable to be loved but he's the one who made me feel special that I don't need to be in someone's level to be appreciated.

This situation had been going on for almost six months pero hindi pa din ako nasanay, well memorable moments cannot be forgotten easily, mga walang puso na lang siguro kung meron man.

Niligpit na ni Francis ang lighting pati ang camera
while I'm getting his laptop so we can edit the video together.

"Threa"

Nagising ang diwa ko sa pag tawag niya ng pangalan ko, napaka sincere kasi ng pagkasabi para kaming friends kahit hindi naman mapupunta ulit sa puntong iyon.

"Y-yes?"

"Ako na ang mag-eedit. You can go home now, Ahtisa will be here also so go now"

Ahtisa.May.Beloved.Karibal.

I bet she's happy now, kumpleto na ang buhay niya, well pasalamat siya hindi ako kagandahan, hindi katalinuhan, hindi lovable. kaya siya nagustuhan.

Well thanks to our fans, our interaction remained. This interaction is for the sake of our fans. Siguro kung hindi kami sikat ako lang ang maiiwang luhaan. Atleast somehow luck goes with the flow.

"Are you sure you want to edit the video alone?"

He chuckled.

"Of course, I can do it alone, I'm not a beginner to know this basic activity" aniya.

Oops I almost forgot. Perfect guy daw nga siya.

"Like, you're always busy, I can edit it, instead of editing you'll be resting" I said convincing him.

He looked at me intense, an eye that shows what he feels.

"I would like to remind you that your not my girlfriend to act like this" he said in a cold tone.

Okay. Kalma.

That surely give a big impact in my face. Lugar lugaran mo rin kasi Threa, hindi na kayo parehas ng dati. He changed a lot, just accept it!

"Don't be so desperate, people change you know"

He laughed like he's not hurting someone.

So insensitive!

"Francis" sabi ko ng mahinahon.

"Hmm?"

"Naka move on ka na ba talaga?"

"Yes" he said in a proud tone.

"But we can be friends right?" I said almost crying, I don't want to tear in front of him It just shows how weak I am kahit lahat naman ng tao may weaknesses.

"Tungkol dyan, medyo malabo" aniya na parang wala kaming pinagsamahan. Ang sakit lang ha, Na hindi ko siya kinalimutan kasi isa siya sa mga magandang nangyari sa buhay ko.

"Why? Hindi mo man lang ba vi-nalue ang moments natin together?" sabi ko.

"Look, Threa wala akong pinagsisihan naging masaya din ako, pero may girlfriend ako at masakit sa part niya na nagkikita tayo. Di ka man lang nahiya?" he said while cursing.

"Bakit!? Hindi ka man lang ba naawa sa sitwasyon ko!? Sa tingin mo masaya ako? Una palang alam kong talo ako pero naniwala ako sayo na ako ang pipiliin mo, pero ano" Hindi ko na napatuloy ang sasabihin ko, tears start falling endlessly, these tears that has been hiding for the past months had a comeback.

"Well, sabi nga nila choose what's best for you"

I was about to say something but the door from the condo open and Ahtisa came in.

"Excuse me" Umalis na ako sa condo pero bago ako makalabas ng pinto, I looked at Ahtisa and observe her, ang hirap niya talagang mapantayan

You can really say she's the definition of perfect.

I breathe heavily before going out, Threa you can overcome this, maybe this is the sign that he's not the one. But why does it feel like I'm loosing a jackpot prize?

Maybe because a jackpot prize doesn't suit me, loot bags suit and also define me. It maybe small but it was loved and wanted by the people, small things inside makes people happy.

I Jacy Averey Estrella Borromeo believe that it is better to wait long than to marry wrong. Na merong lalaking mag ma-match ng efforts ko in the future.