Poems: when I realized I wasn't good enough

Poem 1

My chest feels hollow
My heart beats slower
I sink deeper into my sorrow
As I wish that I could to it all over

I made mistakes every day
I messed up in every way
Now she's gone
And I'm all alone

The letters she's written over the years
Begin to be stained with fresh salty tears
The ink runs and pencil fades
The memories like waves rush over me

The two stuffed animals look down on me
Like two wild beasts looking down on a meal
My heart is tied in knots tighter and tighter
I wish that I had what it took to please her

She says she lied
She says she tried
And now inside I have died

She took my joy and left pain
She took away everything
Now my days are dark and rainy
And my vision starts to look hazy

I'm fading away
Or maybe melting
I think it's okay
If I can keep her from breaking..