Illusions (Enoch O'connor)

Chapter 16: The letter

Zaira Pov:

Lilly and Johnny left the room. Leaving me and this piece of paper alone.
I don't know why but I felt a chill run down my spine as I sat on my bed.

I looked at the front cover.

" Once a Princess Always a Princess."
-Riddian

I've barley read anything and I already feel pain smack my chest.

I take in a deep breath and open the letter. As I read it felt as if I could hear his voice in my head.

The same smooth. Happy voice I fell in love with.

" Hey Zai....If your reading this than that means I'm dead. I know you probably hate me for leaving you, but it was the only thing I could do to ensure your safty.
I made a promise not only to you but to myself that I would do what ever it took for you to be happy. Maybe my death hurts you now, but soon I'll fade away like an old memory. You'll find someone who can treat you better than I ever could. I've seen it. I've seen you outside holding someones hand, watching Light play outside. You'll life will only get better. But like I always say. For things to go smooth they have to start rough.
When I left with Lilly and the other peculiars I hung around with Johnny alot.
He was the only way I could see you. He would tell if your were sad, or angry, and sometimes vary rarely happy. I don't want you to morn over me. You've been doing that for the last four years.
The shadow man is real, and to keep him away from you I have to seal him away in ice. In order to do that I must give up all my life energy.
I know you'll think this is your fault, but it isn't. You didn't ask me to fall so madly in love with you but I did. I fell hard.
The 500 years I spent with you were the best in my life. Know that I love you Princess.
Never doubt it.
-Love Riddian

Ps. don't do anything stupid "

I read over the note several times. Hopeing the words would change.
They never did. He was gone.

Truly gone.

Tears rushed down my face in a hurry. Sat down in the middle of the floor in my room and rocked back and fourth.
He was really dead. It hurt not knowing if he was dead, but now that I know it hurts so much worse.

Ever since I came here Riddian had been my bolder. He was the thing keeping me on earth.

Now he's dead.

Why can't I be?

" Hey Z. Are you okay?" I heard Emma's voice ask from behind my door.
I shake my head as I stand up, " Im fine.....just want to be alone."

Footsteps led away from my door and I sighed.

Slowly I walked towards my art desk. I picked my cutting knife.

I sat back down on the floor and brought the blade up to my wrist.

1 cut

2 cut

3 cut

4 cut

5 cut

6.

My blood started dripping from my hand to the floor.

I did a copy of my left wrist om my left.

I felt my body go numb as I let the blood pour.

This felt right...

This was right.