Afraid To Say I Love You

Chapter 26: Reminiscing Memories

Mau's POV

Ang hirap naman nito halos araw-araw paulit-ulit sa utak ko yung nangyari dun sa playground.

Nandito ako ngayon sa kwarto ko, alam na nila patricia yung nangyari sa amin. Sobra silang nalungkot.

Walang magawa dito masyado, ni wala akong ganang kumain, ayokong lumabas ng kwarto, gusto kong mapag-isa. Makapag-Laptop na nga lang.

Pagka-open ko nung laptop ko bumungad kaagad sa akin yung wallpaper kami ni mark nung mga araw na kami pa, ang saya-saya namin.

Napagdesisyunan kong mag-open ng account sa facebook, sakto pag log-in ko online siya, naiiyak ako Y____Y

Dati nung kami pa lagi kaming sabay mag-online sa facebook tapos kung anu-anong pinag-uusapan namin samantalang ngayon wala na... ni "hi" o "hello" :(

I opened my message box, i'll read our old conversations nalang, alam kong mas lalo akong mahihirapan sa gagawin ko pero ayos lang yun para mabawasan din yung bigat kahit konti.

"hi baby... anong ginagawa mo?! kumain ka na ba?!." ayan yung una kong nabasa dun sa old conversation namin.

Now Playing: Before I Let You Go - Freestyle

I can still remember yesterday

We were so inlove in special way

And knowing that your love

Made me feel,oh so right

"baby miss na kita!" "i love you"

But now i feel lost

Don't know what to do

Each and everyday i think of you

Holding back the tears

Im trying with all my might

Nagsimula akong mag-type ng personal message para sakanya.

"mark thank you for everything, thank you for loving me.. ang hirap naman ng ganto halos araw-araw iniisip ko lung bakit mo nagawa yun sa akin"

Because you've gone and left me

Standing all alone

And i know i've got to face

Tomorrow on my own

But baby

"Hindi ko maiwasang hindi maalala lahat ng masasayang nangyari sa atin simula nung balikan mo ko, simula nung mga panahong nanligaw ka, sinagot kita at naging tayo"

But before i let you go

I want to say I love you

I hope that you'll listening

'Coz its true baby...

And i know that no one else will dooh yeah

So before i let you go

I want to say I love you...

Hindi ko mapigilang hindi mapahagulgol, sobrang sakit ng nararamdaman ko. Gustong-gusto ko na siyang yakapin ng mahigpit at sabihin sakanyang mahal na mahal ko siya.

I wish that it could be

Just like before

I know i could've given you so much more

Even though you know

I've given you all my love

I miss your smile,i miss your kiss

Each and everyday i reminisce

'Coz baby its you

That im always dreaming of

"Ngayon hanggang ala-ala nalang ang lahat, masakit mang isipin na sa loob ng mahabang panahon, kalokohan lang ang lahat" patuloy sa pagbagsak ang luha ko.

Because you've gone and left me

Standing all alone

And i know i've got to face

Tomorrow on my own

But baby

Before i let you go

I want to say i love you

I hope that you'll listenin'

'Coz its true baby

You'll be forever in my heart

And i know that no one else will dooh yeah

So before i let you go

I want to say

Cause letting love go is never easy

But i love you so

That's why i set you free

I know someday, somehow

I'll find the way

To leave it all behind me

Guess it wasn't meant

To be my baby...

Napatakip ako ng kamay sa bigbig ko para pigilan yung hikbi na sobrang lumalakas, naalala ko yung sinabi niya sa akin dun sa playground pati yung sulat.

"HINDI KA NA NIYA MAHAL, TIGILAN NIYO NA ANG LOKOHANG PINAG-GAGAGAWA NIYO!"

"OO, TOTOO LAHAT NG ITO!"

Before i let you go

I want to say i love you

I hope that you'll listenin'

'Coz its true baby

You'll be forever in my heart

And i know that no one else will do

So before i let you go

I want to say

So before i let you go

I want to say

( instrumental... )

I Love You

"Goodbye... Mark T____T" yun yung huling nasabi ko pagkatapos kong ma-send sakanya yung personal message ko, tapos sinara ko na yung laptop ko. Umiiyak pa rin ako, habang nakahiga hanggang sa makatulog na ko.

:'( naiyak ako habang tinatype ko 'to aaaarrrrgghhh... may naalala lang akong bigla :'( wooooottt woooottt mejj hard hihi napapaiyak talaga ko ng kantang yan wusshuu sarreeehhh guys for being so emotional T____T nahahawa na ko waaahhh ....

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