True love

Meeting her

Sat, 14th July 2018
So today I met this girl I had been looking at on social media. I can't believe I am actually meeting her today. My friend had introduced me to this beautiful girl called Sarah. She is so beautiful. I walk up to the shopping centre looking for my friend, Sarah and her friend. I found my friend and she took me her way. At this time no one knew I liked her not even her. As the day went along I knew I needed to get talking to her. I was way too shy. It was time to go home and I ended up going to Leeds with Sarah, my friend and her friend. Her friend got off a fair bit before we did then my friend got off not too far from where we were getting off. Anyways we ended up on the bus together and we started talking telling each other what a lovely day it had been.
That night I couldn't hold back but I had to message her so I did.
"Why did you keep looking at me today?" I sent it with moments of regret I wasn't sure if it was the right thing to say. Then I noticed she was typing back to me. My heart stopped...
"I was making sure you weren't going to mess my bestfriend around." I kinda smiled to myself and said "aww bless I hope you you enjoyed today, I know I did hope to see you again some time." A month or so went by I was missing her didn't know if I should text her or not and I get invited out by my friend again. I was meeting Sarah and another girl. It was the other girls birthday and I ended up going. My friend had to leave early but I chose to ask Sarah if I could stay at hers that night to save me getting the bus home late. "Yes I will ask my mum." I was so shocked because when we first met I generally thought she hated me. She was just so casual with how she said yes about me staying. We had only met twice.

WHERE IT ALL BEGAN
So she wanted to know how to do something and I told her she had to sit next to me to learn. I guess this was my fault it all started but I couldn't hold back anymore. I showed her and then she tried to do it herself. I placed my hand on her thigh... It was for a few seconds maybe not even that. She looked at me as I took my hand off of her thigh. I placed it back and we got another drink. We got talking and playing table tennis together against two lads. I then needed the toilet and asked her to come with me. Her friends brother was in the toilet and her friend and her mum was outside. She learnt up against the wall and stared at me I didn't know whether to kiss her or not. I just stared back hoping she made the move. Nothing happened. As people started leaving we decided to go. We ended up sitting on a curb and getting to know more about each other. I was hoping I would get a kiss before the end of the night but I wanted to take things slow with her. I didn't know what to do or whether I should tell her I liked her. She grabbed my hand and we ended up sitting in these beautiful gardens having another drink before walking back to hers. We ended up sleeping in the same bed that night...
Incase anyone is wondering yes I got the kiss I was waiting for. The next morning I wasn't sure if everything had happened I mean a beautiful girl like her going with a lad like me it couldn't be real. When I left and got home I dropped her a message...
"Did last night really happen?"
I didn't get an instant reply. I ended up falling asleep and when I woke up I had a few messages off of her
"I think so."
"I was thinking the same 2 be honest."
I was so happy I asked her if she liked it and if she wanted to start talking and she said yes. I met her more and more and she met my parents. My dad loved her and my mum did too. I assumed her parents like me too and we ended up getting closer and closer my heart sped up every time I got a text from her.
I payed there the night before I was sleeping at hers again and thought to myself.
*Is this real am I dreaming. I love her I have fallen too fast everything is going to mess up I don't know what to do. She is so beautiful is she going to mess me around like the other girls*
I had no idea what I was getting myself into. A couple of days went by after I slept over the second time and I knew what I had to do.

"Hey gorgeous can we meet this weekend and go for a couple of drinks?"
....
"Yes of course. We can go up street to commercial."
"Okay I just wanted to ask you something that's all and I wanted to take you to a pretty place. I have asked your sister and I know the way."

The day came and we met up got all nicely dressed and headed out. We had, had a couple of drinks and time flew by I nearly missed the moment.

"Babe can we go to the bear garden please?" I asked her

"Yes sure. Dad look after these for us we are going for some fresh air."

We walked outside hand in hand and I noticed we wouldn't have time before the sun had set fully so I stood up and looked her straight in the eye

"Will you be my girlfriend."
"Yes" she said with a great big smile on her face. 28th July 2018 that happened.

DURING THE FIRST MONTH

During the first month my heart grew fonder of her. We had been through some shit but it made us stronger. Not leaving each others sides.

*The next bit is my feelings towards her*

I never knew there was such a thing as love all these times before I had been broken or thought I was in love and I realised it was just a thing. I thought maybe it is what I had but the days went by her treating me so right. I love her with my all. I couldn't ask for anyone better. Helping me through hick and thin. One thing I really do love her for is being a supportive girlfriend to me. I am transgender FtM and she is researching it bit by bit so she understands me more. For this I couldn't love anyone else no one else has done this as far as I know. I couldn't spend the one month with the most gorgeous girl but at the end of the day I don't care because as soon as I next see her a picnic and her favourite songs will be at her feet. I love you so much princess and this is something I have definitely never done before but honestly you deserve a mini story about you. When you smile I feel my heart stop and then I feel it beat again because your just so perfect and my heart couldn't stop beating for that long whilst you are around. You are truly the one I want years and years with you not just months and months
I love you Sarah.