My Life Sucks Without you- A zayn Malik Love story

Sticks and stones will break my windows. But I still don't forgive you

Emmas p.o.v

There I laid. In my bed with tear stained cheeks. Wearing his clothing, knowing that I'm not good enough for him, he deserves better. Better than me. A girl like any other. Blonde hair, blue eyes, tanned skin. Boring personality. Faking smiles and hiding tears.I look over at my clock 12:00pm. I groan and pull myself out of bed and walked over to my ensuit bathroom. Turning on the shower and slowly stepping inside. I let the warm water splash onto my cold skin. I washed my hair with peach shampoo and conditioner. Then I got out and walked back into my bedroom. Throwing on a pair of track pants and one of his t-shirts along with fuzzy socks. Then I dried my hair and put it up into a messy bun. It's not like I'm trying to impress anyone or going any where today. I smelt the shirt. It still has some of his smell left onto it. A shed a tear. And sighed, I look over at my phone. 34 new text messages from zayn. And 15 missed calls. 14 from zayn and 1 from Niall. I smiled. Niall always made me feel better. I set my phone back onto my desk. And looked through an old photo album with the title saying " Z+E= forever and always" my heart tore a little more as I flipped through each page. Pictures of us hugging, kissing and hanging out. My tears stained the pages. Then there was I click at my window. The. It clicked again. As if someone was throwing stones at it. I set aside the photo album and walked over to my window. I opened it to see a tall tanned man with black hair standing at the bottom.Zayn. I roll my eyes. " go away." I shout. " no. Emma I won't. I love you too much to let you go." he pleaded, " oh yeah go tell that to your whore that you slept with last night cuz I don't care anymore." I said back as a tear dripped down my pale cheek. " if you don't car anymore then why are you wearing my shirt?" he asked. Shit! I looked down and saw that I was in his grey shirt. " zayn don't do this to me." I said " I'm just trying to make it better." he said. My heart was breaking with every word he said. " I just can't trust you anymore. How do I know that you wont do that again? How do i know you'll be faithful." I cryed. " Emma I'm sorry. I'm an idiot to ever do that to you and you deserve better Than me. You deserve a man who will never hurt you. " he said. I ran down my stairs and opened the front door . " Emma." he sighed. I ran up to him and hugged him tightly. Just being in his arms made me smile but he just can't win that easily. " look zayn last night I died inside my heart is broken and I need to pick up the shattered pieces not you, we ca still be friends but I just cant let you back into my life just like nothing ever happened." I said looking into his chocolate eyes. " I understand." he said . " goodbye zayn." I said as I kissed him one last time on the lips. " goodbye beautiful. I'll wait for you," he said as a tear streamed down my face and I ran back inside the house. However a part of me wanted him to stay i knew I had to let him go. For good.