Delicate

this ain't for the best

Taylor was tired. She was so tired. She and Karlie have had the same argument for the past month and it was exhausting for the both of them. After being together for almost four years, you would think the two girls would have gotten used to keeping their relationship a secret from the public. However, it seemed to be getting more complicated the longer that they were together.

    For the past year, Taylor had been publicly involved with the new up and coming actor Joe Alwyn. He was British, taller than her, and the perfect man to fake a relationship with. She'd hold his hand to go hiking or out to eat or anything else Tree suggested so paparazzi would take pictures of them together. Nothing but photos of the couple would be released and the media did the rest by spreading numerous rumors about them. It was nothing more than a business deal and Taylor treated it as one.

    Karlie, on the other hand, was in a much deeper "relationship." Her and Josh were surprisingly good friends and faking their relationship wasn't difficult. After all, they had been "together" since 2012. News outlets were starting to question their relationship since they had been dating for nearly six years and wedding bells still weren't being heard. This was the main reason that they finally decided to announce that the couple was happily engaged (for now).

    Although both girls knew that all of this acting was solely so they could be together, at times they wondered if it was truly worth it. If they were truly worth it. Their fight had began when Taylor reluctantly admitted that Karlie's engagement had bothered her. This made Karlie furious because Taylor was also in a fake relationship and to her, had no room to talk. Karlie wanted to come out to the world and tell everyone she was in love with Taylor. She had told Taylor over and over again that she would stand by her no matter what the tabloids and headlines said. She'd be there for her if all of Taylor's fans left even though Karlie knew they would never leave her side. Hell, she'd dance through an avalanche with Taylor. She was ready.

    Taylor wasn't. Taylor was still worried about how people, especially her fans, would react. She wasn't prepared to risk losing her career for Karlie and that is what they've been arguing about for almost four weeks straight.

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    "Taylor, no one will leave you for being yourself. You'll still have an amazing career and amazing fans and you'll still have me. I won't leave your side," argued Karlie.

    "I know you won't. Karlie, I know you won't," Taylor said as she placed her hand on Karlie's cheek. "But you keep saying no one will care but you're wrong. You've seen what they write about me when I go one one date with a guy. I tell my fans to be their authentic self and that they can want who they want but I haven't been doing that myself. Imagine what they'll say when they find out I've been lying to everyone about dating a girl."

    Karlie sighed. Even though she hated to admit it, she knew Taylor was right. It would be the talk of the century if the two girls dropped everything and publicly admitted their love for one another.

Taylor could sense Karlie was getting aggravated. "I'm just not ready yet..."

"Then when will you be, Taylor?" Karlie snapped back before she thought about what she had said out loud.

    "I don't know... Not now. I'm just so damn tired of having the same argument over and over again. It shouldn't be like this Karlie. You know I love you but it isn't right for this to be the only thing we talk about for months. It's not healthy," Taylor sighed as tears began to stream down her face.

    "What are you trying to say?" Karlie asked with a worrisome look on her face.

    "I think we should... take a break," Taylor admitted, "At least until this storm blows over. I'm just not ready to tell the world and I don't want you to resent me for that. I love you too much for you to hate me for it. This is for the best."

    Karlie wasn't a cryer but at this point she couldn't stop the tears. "No, stop, don't. This isn't for the best. I don't hate you for it. I just don't understand why you get mad at me for a fake engagement when you know it's for us. If we'd just tell everyone then we wouldn't even be in this position."

    "That's the problem!" Taylor was getting mad now. "You want to tell everyone when I'm not ready for it and you don't get that. That's the whole point of this argument. You can't get it through your head that maybe I'm not prepared to tell all 7 billion people on the planet that I'm a liar!"

    "Maybe you're right. Maybe I don't understand how you claim to be so in love with me but apparently not enough to actually tell someone about it," Karlie yelled as she began to walk to the door and slip on her shoes.

    "No, Karlie wait I—"

    "No Taylor, I'm going home."

    And that was the last thing Karlie said to her before she ran out the door. Taylor couldn't stop from crying. Had she really just let the love of her life walk out? And did Karlie really think she didn't love her enough? At this point, Taylor wasn't even sure that this was a bad thing. She needed Karlie to be supportive of her decision to not come out yet and right now, Karlie wasn't. Taylor was hopeful that Karlie was just saying things in the moment and that the model would come back soon. She just didn't know how soon that would be.