Stars (shirbert)

7

So this chapter may be a little triggering idk. But if it is you can just skip right over it.

anne

So we're here. Gilbert likes me. I like Gilbert. I honestly don't know what to do. Life is so confusing right now. I want to ask him out, but then I remember what Matthew said.

"Anne. I know you are at the age now where you are going to want a boyfriend. But I will let you know that I am not allowing it until you are 18. The only exception is if I die."

"Yes Matthew."

What if I do it in secret. What if we have a secret relationship. That would be cool. I just have to make sure Matthew never finds out.

I walked down the streets to school. I saw everyone filing in and Gilbert standing by his car.

"Hi Gilbert!"

"Hey Anne"

"Can we talk gil?"

"Sure"

So I lead him over to the same cherry blossom tree that ruby asked him out under (I know so original).

"Well I was wondering if you would maybe go out with me?"

"Of course!" He said.

"Okay" I said kissing him on the cheek. Then I ran inside to my English class. The day went on so quick. And before I knew it was the end of the day and Gilbert was standing outside his car.

"Get in" he said.

"Okay".

So we drove for a while until we got to his house. I didn't know what his plans were but whatever. He grabbed me firmly on the wrist and pulled me inside. He seemed angry. Was it something I did? I didn't know but I didn't want to make him more angry so I just obeyed.

He pulled me inside onto his bed and lays me down on it. I didn't know what his intentions were. But I kinda liked it... he sat on top of me. I'm not too sure what he was doing but it felt right. He kissed me. On the lips. Then the kisses moved down to my neck. Then my collar bone. I liked it but I can't do it anymore. I started to cry. Tears streamed down. My cheeks as I pushed him off of me.

"Anne what's wrong" he said softly. Not like he did before.

"Well I think your mad at me and I can't do this anymore after what Matthew said I can't have him finding out."

"I'm not mad at you!"

"Well your being so... aggressive"

"Shit shit shit shit shit shit."

"What's wrong Gilbert?"

"I'm so stupid. I used you. I used you to take my anger about my father. My loneliness on. Anne I'm so sorry. We didn't have to do that."

"Well... this might sound odd but I kinda liked it. I also kinda with more happened"

"That's the point ;)"

Oof I'm sorry. I didn't know what to write. Anyways have a good day/night!
~Delilah 💕