My Life Sucks Without you- A zayn Malik Love story

Moving On Letting Go Holding Onto Tomorrow

Nialls p.o.v

I got our of emmas house hand opened the door to my car. The engine roared to life as I backed out of her drive way and was on my way to zayns house. It was only about a 3 minute drive. I pulled up into the drive way. I got out of the black sports car and walked up to his door. Knocking on it and waiting fot the door to open. Reveling a zayn that I haven't seen before. His brown eyes were red and puffy you could tell that he's been crying and he didn't care about how his hair looked. " oh my god." I said. " what the fuck happened to you!" I said as he invited me into his house. " Aliyah happened to me." he mumbled. " who's Aliyah?" I asked sitting down on the couch next to him. " Aliyah. The girl who I slept with while I was dating Emma. I don't know what I was thinking man. I feel like shit, I'm a horrible person." he said. " look we all make mistakes that's what makes us human but you cant let girls get to you like that. You lost a great girl." I said patting his back. " now go take a long shower you look awful." I said. Then he said something I never thought he would say." I don't care what I look like" he mumbled. My jaw dropped. "I fucked everything up. I'm such an idiot, I can believe I did that. God damn horemoenes. She deserves better than me." he said as more tears came out of his eyes. I pulled him into a horan hug.god i hated seeing zayn like this, this isn't the side of him that you see very often. He's broken. Then there was a knock at the door. Zayn sighs and stands up walking towards the black double doors.

Zayns p.o.v

I get up and walk towards the black doors not really wanting to talk to anyone right now. I mean I just left the best thing that's ever happened to me. I open the door stunned to see who stands there. " e-Emma?" I finally spat out. " hi." she said shyly looking at her feet. " what are you doing here?" I asked. She bit her lip. All of me just wants to hug her and never let go, but I can't do that anymore. I just wanted her in my arms one more time. " I-I uhh came to talk to you." she finally said. I stepped outside closing the door gently behind me. " what, what was going through your mind when you were with her?" she said shakily. I sighed. " I don't know. It was a huge mistake. " I said. " then why did you do it again?" she said. The words stung. " I don't know." I said I had no reason to cheat on her. " look I understand if you hate me and never want to see me again, I mean, I don't blame you I was a dick." I sighed. " I don't hate you zayn, no matter how hard I try I can't hate you." she said I looked up into her blue ocean eyes. " but you were a dick. I mean after all the things I went through with you? And you go and cheat on me! Zayn I would expect this from Harry. No offense styles, but this doesn't seem like something you would do." she said quitely. I sighed. " do you love her?" she asked. " No I don't. I don't think I could ever love someone as much as I loved you. I never knew one person could mean this much to me, when your not around me all I can do is think about you." I said as a tear dripped from her ice ble eyes. " I'm sorry." I sighed reaching out and wiping away her tear. " look. My life sucks without you. It really does. I feel like there's no happeniss anymore as if the sun stopped rising. The stars stopped shining and the earth stopped spinning. All because of you. I cant live without you. Emma just one more chance. That's all I'm asking." I said looking into her eyes. " I can't right now. I just need some time." she said. A little part of me broke a little more. " that's ok. I understand you need time but never forget. Your my one and only. My other half, my only princess. I'll wait for you." I said as she stood up. I stood up too. Then she hugged me. It felt so right. I breathed in her sweet candy perfume. Then she walked away. Leaving me standing on my front porch crying.