To all the boys I've loved before challenge

chapter 1

Dear Felix,

You don't know me. You walk past me in the halls, well you tower over me actually but that's beside the point. You've never seen me the way I've seen you. You, with your gorgeous blue eyes and fluffy black hair. We've been in the same class since we were in 3rd grade. I've had a crush on you since then. We've never been friends because, well, you're popular and I'm not. I've always been the shy girl in class, which you may or may not have know. I see you in class and a smile comes across my face. I do know that you have a girlfriend and trust me, she makes it very clear to everyone that you are off limits and I would never steal another girl's man. She's the most popular girl in school. You're the football star and she's the cheerleader. It's the romance story of every high school. But when I'm home I imagine what it would be like to have you hold me. What it would be like to have you walk around with me in your arms. I wonder what it would be like to have you kiss me and to tell me wonderful things that only you and I know about. I imagine all of these things and it fills my stomach with butterflies. My life is not all that exciting because I only have 1 friend and my sisters and Dad. When I see you walking down the halls I always think what life would be like if you weren't the jerk you pretend to be. Sometimes, and I know that it's stupid, but I feel as though I can see the real you. The you that you try to hide from everyone else. I don't know if you see me this way or as friends or if you see me at all. All I do know is that my feelings for you feel as though they will never go away. I look forward to every class we have together or seeing you play sports on the field. Even though you will never receive this letter I just want you to know that one day I hope you love. That one day I hope to write you a new letter that has more detail about you because I will have gotten to know you. But maybe that's not how our story is meant to play out. Maybe our paths were never meant to cross in the first place and this is just some temporary thing. I just hope that if this is meant to be that I want you to know that I will always love you and I would never leave your side. But if we are meant for others then I want you to know that I want you to be happy. I want you to know that you will always be my first crush so big that I might love you. 

From your's truly, 

fabiana