Everything I Hide From You

Chapter Ten: Future Zoo To Run...

(Anyone think Juno Temple should play Jamie instead of Danielle Campbell?? Leave a comment with your answer. --------> This is Juno Temple)

"What's wrong with me?" I say out loud and Jamie looks at me as we walk into the kitchen after school. I already pretty much know what's wrong with me. Everyone knows whats wrong with me and I can't change  anything about that. That's why my mom wants me put away. Because I'm nothing but an embarassment to the family and she hates that. She hates being the oddball family and she will do anything to make this family perfect.

"Nothing is wrong with you. The question is: what's wrong with everyone else?" Jamie throws her backpack on the kitchen counter and walks towards the fridge.

I shake my head clearing my thoughts. "Bipolar Disorder is not normal Jamie. I don't know if you've noticed the tantrums and the mood swings, but it certainly doesn't scream: I'M AS NORMAL AS CAN BE! COME BE MY FRIEND!"

"First of all: who says sh!t like that? Second of all, I'm going out to get some supplies," Jamie grabs her school bag again and starts a journey towards the front door. 

"What type of supplies?" I ask her suspiciously. 

"Actually, I'm going to go buy a ball python. Also, I'm going to possibly buy a rabbit. I'm not sure. But, I'm sure I'm going to buy it anyway. Do you need anything while I am out?" Jamie asks.

I give her my best confused face and shake my head, no.

"Ok, see you when I get home." Jamie starts to strut her way out the door and I grab her arm as she tries to pass by me.

She looks back at me and raises her eyebrows at me. "What's up?"

"Umm," I start to fidget. "Can you bring me back a kitten?" I ask seriously. I'm sure I'm going to need something to keep my mind off the things going on in my life. Especially, considering how much time I spend alone.

"Sure, I have a friend whose Persian breed cat just had some kittens and they are giving them away for free," Jamie smiles.

"Where are you getting all this money?" I look down at the wallet she has in her hands and I see two 100 dollar bills and a bunch of tens and twenties.

"Oh my boyfriend. He's loaded," Jamie answers back truthfully. "Well I got to get going. I got some animals to buy and I future zoo to run."

I let her arm go and she races out the door and down the street to the bus stop that will take her into town. Sometimes I swear that girl has some serious problems. Sometimes it's hard to tell she's pretending.

I look around the kitchen and see the open fridge that Jamie didn't close. I hate when she leaves stuff open, it irks the crap out of me. I close the fridge and walk into the living room to get on the computer. I watch it load and load and then go on to YouTube. My fingers freeze over the mouse as I see the MOST WATCHED video of the day.

BIPOLAR GIRL SPAZZES OUT AT ALBERT B. HIGH SCHOOL!! :D

My hands are shaking as I click on the title of the video and it takes me to a new page. The video starts to play and there I am. I'm sitting curled up on a toilet rocking back and forth as tears run down my face.

"What's wrong with this girl?" I can hear someone's voice faintly in the background. Oh god, how could this be happening. If even one person didn't know, now they do. Tears start to pour down my cheeks and I fall off my chair and onto the floor with the video still playing in the background. 

I sniffle with my nose pressed into the carpet and sob loudly. I just cry and cry until the video stops playing. But, then I hit the REPLAY button and listen and sometimes watch the video all over again. I must have clicked REPLAY about 65 times before someone walked through the front door.

"Jamie where are you?" It's my mom. I cringe at the sound of her voice but I don't get up from my position on the floor. My tears long gone but, my body still racking from dry sobs. 

"Oh Rose," My mom steps into the living room and I look away from her. Her eyes slowly raise from me to the video playing on the computer screen.

"Is that you?" She questions.

I don't even respond of acknowledge her.

"Oh my god, Rose! How could you get yourself recorded. Our family is already the talk of the town. We don't need to be the talk of the world! You are so pathetic! It was just the first day of school! Why are you acting like some sort of unstable 3 year old?"

I fight every urge in my body to keep from pouncing on her. "I'm sorry," I whisper.

"Just shut up already!" My mom unplugs the computer from the wall and stomps into her room; slamming the door.

The tears that I thought were gone come spilling over again. She's right I'm so pathetic.

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Sorrry that this chapter is sooo short. (like all the others) This was supposed to be longer than usual but I'm so freaking tired right now and I'm just going to go to bed...Maybe next time.

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