On July,26,2014 I had something happen to me that i blame myself for ever single day now on. I don't know why because he told me that it wasn't my fault but you know how people get. On that particualr day in my life i lost the love on my life..I was dating him for a little over 2 months and he was the best thing that ever happened to me. But On the 26th He left me because he was "hurting me and i was getting hate". Sometimes i look in the mirror and think " why do i have to be the way i am"? "why did this happen"?. The pain is much more than i thought i could handle but i am trying to cope with it. But i guess it's a tad hard when everything in you'r everyday life reminds you of the one person that you can't have.. I cry myself to sleep sometimes and i even go days without sleeping. I stopped eating because every time i eat i get this big lump in my throat that seems to never disappear. I know that it was all for my own good but sometimes it feels like it was the wrong decision that was made. do you ever just sit in the shower thinking about all of the memories that were shared wither it be a long distance relationship or a close distance relationship? Well i do. There really is no point in this story/Journal Entry except to share my story and to maybe give others advice. Ladies if you are reading this just know that if you ever love a guy as much as i do don't let anything stand in you're way because if you do then you wont have them very well. And Know that nothing lasts forever because you should cherish the moments that you spend with the other partner and just know that some day some how that love will be gone. And For the guys just know that if you're girlfriend is getting hate from other girls because if who she is dating than i think you should sit down and have a talk with her and ask her if that is bothering her or if she is ok with still dating you even though that sort of stuff goes on in her life and you'res. Also just know that If you are deeply in love with you're girlfriend than don't hut her in any way don't cheat on her or talk to other girls to make her jealous because being jealous is the worst things and most girls can't help but feel that way when you talk to other girls and it makes the girl look bad but not only the girl looks bad but you will look worse for treating you're girlfriend like that and not giving a crap about her feelings or how she feels when he talks to another girl. If you are dating someone else for more than 2 months than i think that it is a good idea to start opening up to eachother talk to eachother more and be very honest and opened because hiding stuff will only hurt a relationship not help it. My point is That Even Through All Of These Rough Times I Think It's A Good Idea To think About the positives in that situation.
