Mumbles
It's so hard when the person you once shared your pain with is now the cause of it.
I am far too young to be this broken 💔
And I wonder if you can feel it all the way across town
Or even just a few streets down
Stop looking for happiness in the place you lost it
If you saw me the way I saw myself, you'd hate me too
I was getting better. Then you spoke to me, and I broke all over again.
You hurt me more than you loved me.
We're both liars. You pretend you care, and I pretend I don't.
If I had the chance to remove everything I hated about myself, there would be nothing left
I knew you were breaking me, but still I stayed in the hope that it could turn to healing
I don't know what's worse, feeling everything or nothing
It hurts so much to see you look at her the way you used to look at me
My thoughts scare me
Am I really just nothing to everyone?
If we were so toxic for each other, why does being apart hurt so damn much?
I was happy for the first time. I was smiling, happy, had friends, opened up a little. Then it all came crashing down. What happened?
I hate that I could never hate you
Those beautiful fleeting moments in the morning when I have not yet remembered how lonely and sad I am, those are the moments I live for.
You lost feelings while I lost myself
It's hard when a relationship ends over one person no longer trying. But it's at worse when we both tried so hard, but it wasn't enough.
I gave you so much, I gave all of myself and I hoped you'd be careful with it, but in reality you weren't careful. You fucking broke me into pieces and laughed while I tried to piece myself together again, without you.
I pushed everyone else away for you, then you left, leaving me with nothing
Unwanted
Unloved
What's the point of even being here if no one will miss me if I'm gone anyway?
It's okay, I'm used to it
I've tried to move on, but when I look for you in everyone, how can I?
I just want to be okay. I just want to remember what happiness feels like, to not feel lonely, to feel LOVED. Please.
I get jealous because I've realised how easily replaced I am
I made you my home, then you left me homeless
You were amazing, my best friend, my boyfriend, my everything and everyone said that I was so lucky, but no one told me how much it would hurt when that person left and everything you ever wanted is gone and you don't know how to live anymore. So now I can't get too close, because what if I lose them again? I can't go through that pain again, I won't survive another round.
"You cannot heal in the same environment that made you sick"
I hate how you can still make me smile with one little look, then ruin my day with a couple words. I hate how my mood is determined on whether you smile at me or glare at me. I hate how I can be so happy and see you in a bad mood and it automatically puts me in a bad mood. How do you have this much control over me? I just don't understand...
The cuts are slowly getting deeper, when will it end?
*Also please don't worry about me, just random stuff, nuthin terribly life threatening*
