My life story

chapter 10: senior year

Here we are again. I'm Glad most of you have made it this far with me. Were do I begin. School starts in like a few days. I have so much shit to do. My summer was alright. Got my job back at McDonald's. I got into very bad family altercations. I got kicked out a few times. I'm still here tho and don't think I'm going anywhere. My family is in a tough spot. A bad flood runied everything. We lost another class mate. I wish this world wasn't so shitty. I wish people would stop trying to drown there sorrow in booze and cigarettes. Yeah I regret some of my shit this last summer. But my last year of high school is this year. I'm in a panic. How will this school year end ? I'm so WORRIED. Do I have Friends? This is just the beginning of this year and I'm hoping it has a good ending to it.

**I will update this chapter more when school starts ****

School year has statred. It's a shit hole once again. School is like a prison. I'm snapping on everyone. My stress levels are over top. I might not graduate. I'm just a mess. I'm falling apart. There is no fixing this anymore. I'm just a mess. This year is ganna be shit. My family doesn't know how to get along. I'm considered homeless. My mom ex's kicked us out. I've lost everything. Everything I've loved and lived for. My dreams are going down the drain. I just don't know what to do Anymore.

Hello welcome back. I'm no longer in high school. I am in a ged 2 option program my school offers. I'm kicked out I live with my aunt Jackie got kicked out from my aunt tracies. I have yet another job. I like this job and hope it sticks. I'm a mess. My life is falling apart. I made new friends. started to go to youth group again. Things will maybe be get better. But right now I'm a mess.

Hey I am back. I'm doing better but my health is not to hot. my new job is the best tho i love it. I am a lifeguard and its amazing everyone is like family. the new school thing is a adjustment but i know i can do it. I believe in myself. a coworker once told me that sometimes we have to tell our bodies to stop. i thought about this and why he said this. i now know that he was telling me this because we can tell our bodies to stop doing something. This coworker i came close with is some one i admire. the place i work coworkers are not just coworkers there family. every one has each other backs. they care about you in a family like way. i love all of them being apart of the this team is the best thing ever. I'm happy and i feel cared about. I Don't think i ever wanna leave this place. its the best place possible. being part of a pack is something to be proud of, being part of a pack means that you wont be left behind. I have also come to the point i need to move on from things. I have moved on from past things. i went through a lot in this past year its still upsets me a little. But i made it out alive it made me a stronger person. I have made changes and im okay with these changes. i love my life so much. I still have my ups and downs. I just hope next year turns out better than this year. For once in my life everything is turning out okay. i have the support of not coworkers but a family of people who care about each other.

I don't know were to start everything is a mess lately. I'm having issues with everything. I get tensed up at work when I am around one my coworkers. I don't feel safe by them. I don't understand why. i reported what happened and i still don't feel safe. i almost start to cry. why do i feel like a target.

my best friend found out about things i wish he didn't know.  I turned 18. i now live with 2 of my greatest friends, its like a family sometimes. we fight but we get over it.  but of course my life is still a mess i'm trying to get my shit together. my life is just a complete mess some days. im getting by. im thinking about consuleing maybe it will help.. especially after coming out to my family and them sorta not excepting me. i went to state for a school club. my depression and anxiety is still a mess like always. i making it out alive tho. so guess my life isn't a complete mess yet this whole adulating thing is still new to me yet.