Sorry for the late update, I skipped some days, to get closer to the meet and greet so the updates will be a bit more interesting :)!
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Hi niall,
5 days, just 5 more days and I will finally see you. I can't believe it, time went by so fast, I know that the moment i'll hug you, i don't want to let go anymore. I will be hugging my world but you will be hugging another fan. I'll be meeting the boy who kept me strong and sane and who makes me strong, but for you it's just another meeting. You will forget my name and my face as soon as it all ends. But I, I will remember the moment for the rest of my life, cause it will probably be the only thing that will keep me together.
I can't stop myself from being nervous, you meet so many fans, and so many are way prettier and happier than me, i'm just an ugly and depressed fan, you will probably be disgusted by me. I will make myself look pretty for once, but still, i'll never be good enough. I tried to kill myself yesterday again, I had the pills in my hand but I dropped them, cause I thought about hugging you and I wouldn't be able to do that if I did kill myself.
I hope you will sort of be happy to meet me too, because the thought about meeting you is the only thing from stopping me to go. I still can't thank my mom enough for doing this niall, I'm feeling sad lately again, and I cry myself to sleep every night, I'm having so many nightmares lately, it's getting worse. But I hope that after the day I meet you, they will go away or become less.
I love you niall, forever and always.
Love,
Ashley *:･✧
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Once again, sorry for the late update lololol. I love you all so much I hate to keep you waiting, and do you guys even like this story?
Anyways, niall's p.o.v. will appear soon, so be ready for that :).
Love you lots
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letters || niall horan.
FanficShe writes him letters, almost every day, she tells him her biggest secrets, her biggest fearS. She trusts him, but he? He has no clue who she is and that she even exists. We're talking about a girl named Ashley Anderson and a boy named Niall Horan...
