Its been four months since Gus died , and I find my self wondering about life and death and life and death choices. I think about cancer, you know that diease I have been dealing with ever since i was 13. The same diease , the love of my life died of . Augustus waters was my one and only love. Me and Gus's love story was epic. We meet and fell in love at this cancer support group. The Literial Heart of Jesus,that is what everybody called it. I like to think back to time when everything was okay. I remember the first day I met Gus. My mother dropped me off at support group. I remember not wanting to go. I remember walking into the building and seeing this guy in a wheel chair go in the elevator. He tryed to kept open, but i said i will just take the stairs.Then it happened. I bumped into Augustus . He said My bad, I smiled . Since that moment I could not stop looking at him. But i had to stop looking at him because he kept stairing at me. I felt so awkward and nervous. I could not prove it to my self . My first impression of Gus was that he was hot. Thats the day I first meet him. I remember so much about me and Gus. There were so many things like how we liked this author Peter Van Houten. Peter Van Houten is/was a drunk . He was not really a bad person. He was just a man who would instead of expressing his feelings , he would use rum and diffirent to get away his pain . I Remember going to the Anne frank house with Gus and Peter's assistant. It was a wonderful pieace of history .Even though it was sad, I felt like it was good how they could show that people got judged by their reilgon. I remember the first time I kissed Gus. It felt like magic. After that kiss we went back to Gus's hotel room . We ended up making love, and it was the most magical night of my life. I really loved Augustus. The day after, gus told me he got cancer again. When he said he was dieing , I told him he just had a touch of cancer . That is what it really was. He ended up dieing, even though he did not deserve it , it happened. Im currently now 18 . Im still dealing with cancer. My lungs are still suck at being lungs. Im not alone . I have my parents,my best friend Issac and my new boyfriend Gregg, which I met in college. Im now living in Amsterdam. I miss Gus Everyday. I really wish he would come back. I know that once people die they don't come back . So hope when i die the people that i love move on .I never want leave a mark on the world , but i want the living to be happy. Thats really all I needed to say , so I gueese bye , acutally i have a better idea.............................................
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Sincerly , Hazel Grace Lancaster
