Our last Okay; tfios fanfic

Our last okay

I wake to the sound of my ringing phone, the caller ID saying Augustus's mom.

"He's gone" I immediately thought.

"Hey, Hazel?" She says

"Yeah?" I say, the panic obvious in my voice.

"Oh. Well um... Augustus went unconscious about 30 minutes ago. I was just wondering if you wanted to um... Well... In case he um... You know"

"I'll be right there" I say, already getting out of my bed. I disconnect myself from the BiPap and connect myself to Philip. I get dressed and very poorly brush my hair and leave a note on the table just in case my parents wake up while I'm still gone.

Augustus went unconscious. At hospital. Love you

-Hazel I write.

I start my car and drive toward the hospital. I turn on the radio, and White strips immediately blasts on. I drive like 45 miles per hour, rushing toward the hospital. Although it was 2:00 in the morning, the hospital was packed with ill people. I power walk toward the accountant.

"Excuse me, I'd like to see a patient?" I say.

"Name" she says in monotone.

"Augustus Waters".

"2nd floor, room 3" but I was already running toward the elevator.

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I swing the door open as it revealed Augustus's mom and dad, kneeled over him.

"Hazel!" Augustus's mom said, racing to hug me.

"Hey" I shyly say. We all walk over toward Augustus.I grab his hand, hoping that he'll wake up, and laugh. But he doesn't. I sit down on the couch next to him, listening to the heart monitor beep, matching his heartbeat.

"How long has he been like this" I ask.

"About an hour or so" his dad answers. We keep quiet after that.

After like ten minutes or so Augustus's mom finally speaks. "Would you like a sandwich or anything? There's bottles of water if you would like

"Oh. Yes please. I would like some water, thanks"I reply. I take a sip of the room temperature water. I reach over to give him a kiss, but he was holding in his hand. I start to tug it free, but he was laying on it, so I move him to the side, grabbing the papers. I gasp when I see the papers.

"Oh my.." Augustus's father said.

"The papers" I say, not bothering to make eye contact. It was a book, a crinkled stapled book, yet it was the most beautiful book I've ever seen. The cover read;

AN IMPERIAL AFFLICTION; THE SEQUEL

I quickly open the stapled book, tears welling up in my eyes. He handwritten it. I quickly began reading. It read;

To Hazel Grace, my one and only okay.

When Anna went unconcsious in her room, I, her mother,  noticed her motionless head resting on her keyboard. You knew she had spent her last few minutes alive writing something. Once the doctor finally claimed that Anna had passed away,I thought it would be best to finish up whatever it was she had written. I am not the greatest writer as she was,but it is better than nothing. Ths is our story...

I entered The church, hand in hand with the Dutch tulip man. Christine waves her hand at us, gesturing us to go with her. So we do. Her eyes were weary from sobbing. 

"Hi." She said.

"Hello" I replied.Everyone surrounded Anna's body, leaving flowers or praying. It was pretty awkward between the three of us. After a whole everyone cleared out, and I walked over to her body. She wears her death dress; a black knee length strapped dress.

"Ceci ne'st pas une pipe" I whisper. I touch her dainty little fingers, wishing she would wake, just once more, my beautiful daughter, just once more. I return to my seat. The eulogies begin and Christine goes first. ---

Mrs. Waters interrupts me from my reading.

"Hey sweetie, um, Augustus's heartbeat has sped up a bit, so we're just going to tell a doctor. Are you going to be okay alone?"

"Uh ya, sure." And my eyes fall on the page.

"Anna.... Anna was probably the best thing that had ever happened to me. Whenever I was down, she find a way to make me happy. Never once was she like how I thought she'd be. If anything, her death was a mistake the universe made. Death took her instead of another. And now all my words are... Why? Why her God? Why?"

Christine was now screaming, tears all over her face.

"Out of all the cancer patients in the world, it had to be the one, one girl who truly was the best. I should be in her place right now, because that's what should've happened. Everything won't be the same without you, my best friend in the world, Anna.

The priest stands, introducing me to the audience. "That was wonderful Christine. We all feel for your loss. And now, Anna's mother, would like to say some words.

I walk over to the stage, my legs trembling from the trauma. "I was Anna's mother, and, as you heard from Christine, Anna was the best person you could ever meet. One of a kind personality, one of a kind emotions, one of a kind everything. And god, of depression was a side effect for cancer, she sure didn't have it. Not one time did I ever see her cry for more than a minute. And was she brave, I think everyone hear can say a yes to that one. She'd go for everything she found intriguing. And I know she wasn't afraid of death, because fear doesn't shut you down, it wakes you up. And she didn't wake up. If anything, she teased death for even thinking she wouldn't leave without a fight. And what a fight it was---

And the heart monitor stops beeping.

Panic rushes through every bone in my body, every muscle in my body, every vein in my body. I stand up, the sequel in my hand. Augustus's face beginning to look paler and paler. I look around, his parents weren't here yet, I am alone.

"No... Not you... Not today..."

I walk toward him, the heart monitor beepless

" NO!!!"

I start to shake his athletic arms, sobbing

"NOT YOU! NOT TODAY!"

But nobody listened. He remained motionless, and my panic grew every second the heart monitor disobeyed.

And finally I give up trying to wake him up, I give up. Because it was all over. Everything. I cry on his face, I cry on his chest, his motionless chest. His dead chest. His gone chest.

"Why you, why?" My everything aches, and I am dying inside, every nerve in me aching in sorrow. His face and his neck soaked with my tears. It was an unfair death, an illogical death, a stupid death, a death which was never supposed to be.

What ever happened to okay, Gus? What happened to that?! I thought I was your one and only okay, and you were my one and only okay, but we didn't have enough time, and I believe you were always there, always protecting me, in a sort of way. And you'll always will be, and I'll always be okay, but not like how I used to be. Why Augustus, did you die on me? You are my one and only, always will be, always was. But no, I refuse to refer to you as 'was'. Because you deserve better.

Mr. And mrs water enter the room, only to find that there son has died without them, because he died with me, and me alone.

"Oh my god" mrs waters said, racing toward Augustus. But I storm out of the room before he could say anything, leaving my tears to stay with him, forever, as a memory of me.

Okay is our always, my beautiful, lanky, Augustus Waters.