1am -RM ff

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1 / 6 / 2018

I watched his emotion less face,standing in the corner of the room,he was looking into my eyes,I followed his actions.

We looked into each others eyes,I was trying to hide my tears,the sorrow so hard,I didn't wanted him to see me miserably.

He looked at me emotionlessly,but soon had a smirk.what was he trying to do?

what was he trying yo prove? But most of all Why he was doing all this?

I thought we had a happy ending,I thought we'd stay by each other forever,I thought it was true love.

Joon yanks the girl that was grinding on his lap, the first thing I did was checking his pants,he doesn't have a bulge,I smiled internally.

Yes,I'm that stupid bitch that's clingy over her ex boyfriend. He stands up leaving,some bitches drooling over him,might have followed him.

But it's not that I'm obsessed with him,it's weird how we ended.

One day,he showed up after ignoring me for half a year,and was really rude.he just smashed the ring we bought.COUPLE RINGS.

and vanished again.From then,he talks shit about me,dispises me,can't tolerate my existence near him.

He just changed completely and that broke me,he was my sake of happiness.

My family told me he was worthless, my family and joon were in good terms,they just said it to comfort me.

Namjoon just left the hall,while those girls found them selves some random guys. I took my bag asap and vanished out of there.

I didn't wanted to show my tears to anyone. I felt an urge to just get on my knees and cry my heart out,but fighting that urge I exited,

There stood him,his hands digged in his pockets,with his back facing me,he was staring at the moon.

FLASH BACK.

Joon:
You see that moon?it has scars,yet it's beautiful.I....I want to be that moon for you,I have flaws but you can look at me,anytime.

I smiled at him,leaning my back on his chest,he hugged me from behind,placing a sweet kiss on my head.

It became our habit,to have a talk at 1am in the balcony,watching the moon.

RM and I shared the poetic personalities, we both loved writing and often we used to write together.

We'll appreciate each other's work,we'd be competitive some times,but over all we were on the top peak of happiness we could reach.

FLASHBACK ENDED

I let out a few tears,immediately wiping them off,ughh I hate being this weak.

Joon throws a bottle of vodka aside. He walks a bit and soon trips,typical.

I let out a sigh,walking to him,taking his shoulder picking him up,I literally have to carry all his weight.

He leaned totally on me,I managed to reach my house.

Yeah so he slept in my house,cause back then he used to live in another state,so he was new here.

And I didn't knew his address,I laid him down on a bed,in my guest room. He mumbled in his sleep.

I remember the old times when he used to mumble slightly,but I'd still manage to hear,

whenever I heard him mumbling he'd say 'you don't know babygirl'  'oh yeah' 'cute' 'you're mine'.

How I'd smile to myself hearing it. How I'd act like I didn't heard it,

how he'll just hug me,and dig his face in my neck,kissing me all over.

What exactly went wrong?

Where did I do wrong?

How did the things end up like this?

I used to think we were the perfect two,never had I ever imagined this much hatred from him.