Stray Kids Imagines

Feel like I'm drowning pt.3 {H.H}

Hey guys! I'm finally back with the third part!! Let's get it!!
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"Hello. May I come in?" It was Hyunjin.

"I'll let you two talk everything out.," my dad said as he stood up and made everyone else go out of the room. Jaehyun was a bit reluctant to leave but she decided to let him speak with me.

As soon as everyone left the room and it was just us two, Hyunjin sat down on the chair next to my hospital bed.

Nobody spoke. We were both silent for what felt like hours. We couldn't even look at eachother. Finally, Hyunjin broke the silence. "I am so sorry.," he said in a quiet, shaky voice. I turned to look at him, seeing that he had his head hung low. He kept his eyes glued to the ground as if it was the only thing he could look at, while he was fiddling with his fingers. "Look up at me.," I said, a sudden bit of confidence in me. He slowly picked his head up, still looking down as if he was unsure if he should look at me, until finally his eyes met mine.

"ᴡʜʏ?... Why?," I said in a quiet, raspy tone. I wanted to know why. Why did he push me? Why did he treat me like that? Why did he say all those hurtful words and make me feel worthless? Just why?

"I don't know.."

"What do you mean you don't know?!" He flinched a bit. Perhaps I snapped.

I inhaled a deep breathe. "I just want to know why. What did I ever do to you? What did I do to deserve this?," I said as I looked down at my hands, connected to all the wires. I tried to hold back tears, but when I looked up I saw that he, too, had glistening, teary eyes just ready to rain down any second, making it even harder for me to pull back. He was looking at me with such a painful expression, which for some reason made my heart hurt. "You have no idea how much I hate myself for causing you all that pain.,' he began, "Everyday that I would tease you and bully you, I would get back home regretting what I had said. Yet, the next day I'd just go at it again. I don't know why. I never wanted to hurt you that badly. But... it's like something or somebody else would just take over me and control my actions." At this point, he was already in tears, ruffling his hair and covering his face with both hands. "I don't deserve forgiveness from you. I can't even forgive myself. Like look! Look at what my actions ended up in.," he said, gesturing towards the bed, wires, and the whole room.

"Like I said, I don't expect you to ever forgive me for the things I've done. But I promise you this, I will never ever disregard your or anybody else's feelings again. I will never hurt someone the way I've hurt you again, including you. You have played such a vital role in the track for me becoming wiser. I am so sorry that you had lay a victim to my words and I will keep this promise till the day I am submerged under the ground." He stuck out his pinky for me to help ensure that the promise is kept.

I didn't know what I was feeling. It was all kind of just mixed emotions. My mind was going through so many thoughts at the moment. I wanted to believe him but at the same time I was still mad at him. I hesitated before I took it and sealed the deal (thumb promise), hoping that what he said was all true.

"I hope you know that you did cause me great pain." He looked down as I said that. "But I also do want you to know that what you said this day made me feel a bit better. Although I don't exactly know as to why you did what you did, but only getting a fraction of the answer is enough for me. And you're right, forgiving you is not going to be easy. But I do want our relationship to be better and not as toxic as how it was before... Also, I want to thank you. For jumping in the water when you did. My dad told me about it and he's thankful for it to. I wouldn't even want to imagine the pain he would've gone through. It shows at least you have a heart. And maybe someday I'll get to see it for myself."

He looked up at me and gave me the most heartwarming smile ever. Just then, he suddenly gave me a hug. "Thank you so much for saying that!" He said in between sniffs. "Woah, calm down there buddy. Wait, are you crying again?" "NO," he said as he released me and quickly wiped his face. I shook my head, stifling a giggle.

"I should leave and let you rest now. I don't want to be the cause of anymore of your pain. I will prove that the Hyunjin that did this to you is not the real me. And once I finally do, maybe we can become great friends. I know that you have such a big heart deep down inside and I hope you can accept my apology. I really wish you get well soon."

He started walking towards the door when suddenly, "Hyunjin." He turned back to look at me, waiting for what I needed to say. "Bye.," was all I could say. He bowed while giving a small smile then went out the door.

I just sat there. Thinking about the way I had called his name, as if I was going to say anything more than just 'bye'. I felt like I wanted to say something else, but my mind couldn't think of the right words. I still feel like there were many words that were left unsaid. I guess it was just the wrong place, wrong time.

Maybe the next time I see him.

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So I finally published the 3rd part.
JUST TO CLARIFY, Hyunjin is not a bad person at all. He has such a good heart and is amazing! LIKE THE BOI WANTED TO COVER HIMSELF IN IDOL ROOM TO MAKE IT A SAFE BROADCAST, EVEN WHEN HE WASN'T SHOWING THAT MUCH SKIN!! I believe with all my heart that he is a great person and any rumors saying otherwise, I don't believe them. 

Like can he get anymore cuter? Handsome? Talented?

Anyways, I loved this comeback and their promotions! Stays got fed so well! I loved every MV, performance video, street video. They got Rookie Of The Year! I'm so proud of them!! And you can see how Chan couldn't stop smiling because he has been waiting for this for 7 years. He worked so hard and selected the members himself! They all worked so hard and they definitely deserve this!💖

Welp, please request what you'd like for me to write! Like please!!
Byeeeeee!!💗🙃