I dated twins...

Desperate for salvation

This was never meant to be my life. I wasn't the kind of girl who would just wind up a spy one day. I was normally the one everyone forgot or never really even knew existed.
Even after Ryan told people I helped find his sister. No one remembered who I was for more than 10 minutes. It always got on my nerves. Everyone knew me personally but nobody acknowledged that they did.

I was the poor nobody who had the best advice in the school grounds.
I spent most of my life wanting to escape the shadows but right now I just wish I was there again.
I never thought I'd miss no one knowing my name or someone telling "shorty move!" Randomly.

The truth was, I liked my life before I was finally getting somewhere. Well I mean I guess I ended up somewhere but why here?
Why with the Mathews brothers why like this!?

I need to get away from this soon but how?
How can you escape your life?
Like literally this is the world I have run into and now can't go backing out!!?

waking was the second worst part of my trip to wherever the hell I was going. I was moving. not literally, though I could feel the hum of smooth vibration rattle beneath me. although bleary eyed I tried to make the best of my vision and aimed for what looked like a window. the world outside the window was wet and grey, heavy storm clouds were sat in the sky, the roads were long and barren, there was nothing but fields for as far as I could see. things became clearer after I rubbed my eyes. I was completely oblivious to the rope around my hands until the world became clear as day. I grasped what happened now. this was not going to go well. despite what my gut was telling me I didn't scream. I couldnt, every ounce of adrenaline in my body was gone, I had no energy, nothing to fall back on. I could feel the dreaded fear creep into the back of my mind. this time the feeling was strong, I was either about to be tortured or I was about to die.

the radio buzzed quietly in the air around us, I could feel myself growing tired and wanting to fall asleep to the sound of the pitter pattering rain and general soft buzz around me. I blinked hard trying to stop myself from falling asleep. "help" I mumbled weakly, it came out as more of a muffled whine through the cloth tied around my head from my mouth to my neck. what the hell? I thought I was with tom but I was wrong. tom hadn't come and stopped me from doing something reckless, I had done something reckless already. a dark suited figure shifted in the front seat. "hey?! you awake yet?!" the voice called loudly, I shut my eyes instantly as he searched the back seat through the rear view mirror. he grunts something as I try to stay awake but I failed. sleep came easily, as if all it took was for me to lay my head down and that was it I was gone, consumed by the beautiful white noise and peaceful abyss.

I felt a cold hard stinging sensation plant itself forcefully on my cheek as I woke. the air around me was bitterly cold, so much so I could see my breath in front of me. "yeah she's up now" the room wasn't a warehouse or old abandoned garage, in fact I was sat in some kind of penthouse. from just glancing at the skyline outside the window I had proven myself right in thinking we were on the top floor. the cloth and rope had not moved from my mouth and hands, though I was tied to a chair my feet were strapped down too. there were three large men in the room with me, all with similar attire, blazers, trousers, shirt and tie. I inhaled deeply trying to compose myself before I screamed for help. I knew it wouldn't work but I had to try something. one of the guys moved toward me, staring intensely as if to take in every single feature of my body. his green eyes travelled from my eyes to my cheeks to my shoulders and to my feet. he was the kind of guy you didn't mess with, or at least he looked it.

the other two hung back one with blue eyes and the other with brown. the brown eyes had matching hair. the blue eyes wore an auburn mop of hair. they looked familiar but I couldnt place it. "dont try to scream, there's no use no one can hear you anyway" great, I thought, just my luck, living the worst case scenario as always then. I could hear mumbles come from where the pair hung back but I refused to acknowledge them, I stared straight at the guy in front of me. "why am I here?" he laughed "same reason you think your here, you hold important information and he wants it now, he's waited long enough " I shook my head "who?" the guys laugh grew louder and harsher. I waited for someone to reply but found myself sat in silence.