Bad Intentions (Falling In Reverse)

Eight: 'Christofer' Seems To Be The Name On Everyone's Lips

Eight: 'Christofer' Seems To Be The Name On Everyone's Lips

~Bri~

Beep…Beep…Beep…

I took in a deep breath.

Beep…Beep…Beep…

I reached my hand around, looking for my alarm clock to shut it off. But I jerked my hand back when I felt a sharp pain shoot through my entire arm.

Beep…Beep…Beep…

“Ronnie…” I tried to say. But my voice came out in a whisper. I coughed, clearing my throat before trying again. “Ronnie?”

I heard someone shuffle over to the bed. “Yeah.” he said, putting his hand in mine. “I’m right here.”

“Is Alex here?” I asked, my eyes still closed. I wanted to talk to Alex. I needed to. I probably scared the ever living shit out of him. Alex is a care-free person…until it’s something about me or his family. Then he worries and panics more than a teenage girl an hour before her first date.

“He went to take a piss.” David said out of nowhere.

I weakly smacked my hand in the direction I heard his voice come from.

“Too slow, baby.” he chuckled.

I sighed. “Go away, David.” I snapped, being completely serious. “I need to talk to Ronnie.”

I could partially hear David roll his eyes at me while he walked toward the door, mumbling things to himself as he went. Freaking Bass players and their moody complaints. I’ve honestly never met a bassist that didn’t complain about SOMETHING.

“Ronnie?” I asked, slowly opening my eyes. I winced at the bright white lights. I fucking hate hospitals. Death, germs, and bright ass lights. Who would willingly be in a place like this? Other than Doctors and stuff.

“Yes?” he said, giving me the happiest Ronnie grin I’d ever seen.

I sighed, thinking of what I wanted to ask him. “Is…” I trailed off, thinking of my question again. Did I really want to know the answer? “Is…Is Christofer here?” I finally asked, letting the words rush out of my mouth.

His smile faded a little and he looked to the side, away from me. His hand tensed up around mine, letting me know he was mad about something. “No.” he said, his jaw tight. “He didn’t come either. I should beat his ass for that.”

I bit the inside of my lip, trying to stop the pain that was rushing through my heart. I tired to hold back the tears, but it didn’t work. “I…I’m s-sorry.” I told Ronnie when he looked at me in panic. “I just…” I shook my head.

“Shhh.” Ronnie told me, pulling me into his chest as best he could. “Don‘t apologize for crying.”

I shook my head. “I‘m sorry.” I told him again, trying to stop myself from crying. But that was no use. It just made things worse. I don’t know why it surprised me. I should have known he wasn’t going to come. That wasn’t my reason for what I did anyway. I just needed to cut. I didn’t mean to end up in the hospital. But since I did, I assumed he’d be here. “We’re done.” were the words that were echoing through my ears. I believed him now.

“Shhh, Bri.” he hugged me tighter. “It’ll be okay.”

I just nodded, even though I didn’t believe him. Even when Christofer broke up with me, it didn’t fully sink in. There was always a tiny shred of hope that he would change his mind. But now? Now I knew we were done. He wanted nothing to do with me.

I cried harder, knowing that I’d lost the one person I love more than I loved anything else. It’s moments like these where people say they want to die. Well, I don’t want to die. I already feel dead. I just wanted to go home. I wanted to forget everything that happened.

 I just wanted to forget about Christofer.

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~Alex~

After I sat with Bri for a few hours, I knew she was hurt. Not just because of her cuts, but because of Christofer. It hurt me to see her that way. So upset about someone that she actually started cutting again. I gave up my chance to be with her so he could. And what does he do? He throws it away because of some rumors. I told him they weren’t true. But he decided to believe the press rather than his own friend.

I walked into the lobby, passing all of the people here to see Bri. Her friends, the cameras, and all the fans crowding around to see if their “Punk Princess” is alright. It’s amazing how many people love that girl.

Black Veil Brides, Bring Me The Horizon, All Time Low, Jordan Witzigreuter, We The Kings, Seether, Slash, and many more. So many people dropped everything to fly here. Most of them ditched their tours for today just to makes sure she was alright. And the people who couldn’t come, called everyone who did. I never knew that Bri had so many friends. Even the current and old members of Never Shout Never showed up. That shocked me. Even though it shouldn’t. I knew Bri and Nate were close. As well as Hayden and Taylor. But I was surprised that they came even though Christofer didn’t.

I gave my band members a nod as I walked past them, letting them know everything was okay. I pushed past everyone, and smacked away a few cameras that got past the barrier the police made. When I finally got to a quiet place, I pulled out my cell phone, flipping through the contacts until I found the one I was looking for.

It rang a few times before he picked up. “Hello?”

“You son of a bitch.” I hissed into the phone, getting pissed all over again as soon as I heard this bitch’s voice.

“Don’t even start, Alex.” Chris told me, sounding extremely annoyed and…tired? “I already know I’m an asshole for not coming to see her. I know I’m wrong. So there’s no need to waste your breath.”

“If you know you’re wrong, then why the fuck aren’t you here?” I snapped at someone who used to be my friend. I can’t believe he actually had the nerve to say he knew he was wrong, yet he still didn’t come to see Bri. “Do you seriously not care anymore?!”

“Alex…you of all people should understand why I’m not there.” he told me. “I couldn’t see her like that. I couldn’t see her at all. It took everything I had just to let her go.”

“Bullshit!” I yelled, getting madder by the second. I’ve about had it with him. “You were a compete dick before you even thought about leaving her!”

“I only did that to distance myself because I thought she was going to leave me for Radke! It just…it scared me how much I loved her. Okay? Then people started saying I wasn’t right for her and that Ronnie was. Then came the rumors. It was too much.” he sighed. “I had to let her go. I just wanted her to be happy, man. And I knew that meant me being out of the picture.”

I clenched and unclenched my jaw, counting to 10 in my head. Letting him explain himself wasn‘t the point of this phone call. Not really. I just wanted to give him a piece of my mind. “You just wanted her to be happy? Really? If that was the case, you would’ve left her alone from the beginning. She clearly would’ve been better off with me!” I yelled without thinking, earning me some strange looks for cameramen. That was the truth though. We all knew it. But I knew she’d never be with me. Even if Chris hadn’t jumped in the way. I took a deep breath, pinching the bridge of my nose as I tired to calm myself down. “She thinks you don’t love her anymore.”

“What?”

I rolled my eyes at his gasping responds. He’s such a chick. “You heard me.”

“I--” he stopped himself. Then he was quiet for a while. “She…actually believed me?”

I sighed, rubbing my hand down my chin in annoyance. “Why the hell would I tell you that if it wasn’t true?”

He laughed a little. “To try to guilt trip me?” 

“Yeah.” I laughed too. “Sounds like some bullshit I’d pull.”

Chris laughed again before going silent for a minute. “Is she okay, Alex?”

I sighed. I don’t care what he says, how he acts, or who he dates. I know he still loves Bri. Even if he isn’t IN love with her. “She--”

“Hey! His name is my name too!” Someone yelled from behind me and I knew who it was immediately. Alex from All Time Low. He’s the only person who would actually say some shit like that. “Bri is awake! She wants to talk to you!”

I nodded toward him, rolling my eyes at the dumb ass as I waved my hand to notify him that I’d be there in a second. “She just woke up apparently.” I told him as I let out a sigh of relief. I didn’t even know that I was that stressed about this whole thing. I guess that’s what happens when the girl you’re love almost dies. “I’ll call you back, bro. Don’t think I’m not still pissed at you though. Your ass will be kicked next time I see you.”

He just laughed at me. “Fair enough.”

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Author’s Note: I’m so sorry for this boring filler chapter, everyone. /: It had to be done! But do not fear! For the lack of excitement in this chapter, I shall make twice as much in the next. ;) And feel lucky because I‘m feeling a hot little scene coming up for all those bad kiddos. ;D

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-Lexi Rain