Long Lost Drummer Girl (A Black Veil Brides Fanfic)

Chapter 32

Chapter 32: Amber’s POV

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There is cutting involved in this chapter. And if something is in bold italics that means it’s the past. There’s a lot of jumping back in forth so I just made it easy.

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                I was sitting on the floor of my bathroom, looking at a razorblade. I’ve always been against these things but really, it seemed like the only thing. All the people telling me it will be OK made me feel trapped, cluttered, and uncomfortable even. I sighed as I rubbed it over my shoulder. “First one is for thinking the bad is over.”

                “Who says I have to leave you?” Christian smirked. I frowned.

                “What do you mean?” I gave him a look with interest.

                “He means that he’s going to take you on tour with us!” Jinxx said happily.

                “Another thinking I am done with him. Done with all the crap he gave me.”

                “Are you ready to live with Black Veil Brides?” He grinned.

                “Is it fun?” I asked.

                “Yeah.”

                “Is it better then Dad’s?” I asked.

                “I think so.”

                “Then I’m ready.” I grin.

                “A third for thinking romance would cover my sorrow.”

                “Andy I have to tell you something…” I began but I was stopped by a set of lips that I could feel the taste of tobacco on them.

                The kiss was amazing. We didn’t let go and at some point he tried to let his little tongue of his inside my mouth, biting my lip etc. and soon I gave in. I could feel the warmth of his breath in my mouth and I could taste the smell of peppermint and tobacco. Even though I didn’t smoke normally myself I still couldn’t help but love the combined taste.

                “A fourth for falling down and unable to get back up.”

                “Hi I’m Doctor Janet Springs I am truly sorry for you to hear they your mother, Mary Mora has passed away. I am so sorry for your loss.” She said sadly. I felt a mix of emotions in my body, I felt my eyes watering and stinging.

                “I-I…. How did she die?” I asked covering my mouth, letting now screams of sadness escape me.

                “Suicide. There is a suicide note with you and your brother, Christian, names in it. There is gun powder residue on her hands and her body position and blood splatter is equal to a suicide.”

                “A fifth for no elders there to seek life.”

                Cry’s filled the hospital room. CC’s eyes lit up and Andy’s looked like his were about to fall out his sockets in excitement. Soon they cut the cord and they wiped off some of the newborn baby crap off of her. I couldn’t really see her yet. They said they would be right back with her after they bathed her and gave her the shots she needed.

                “Was she cute?” I asked as the doctors left the room.

                “She was beautiful.” Andy said, I could see a tear roll down his cheek. “I love you so much.” He walked over and gave me a hug and a passionate kiss.

                “And a sixth is for unable to be free.”

                There was a knock at my door. I frowned as I got up to see who it was. I opened the door and there he was once again. My father. His hair looked shaggy, he had a long beard that didn’t look sanitary in the slightest. His clothes were stained and he reeked of alcohol and vomit. “What the hell do you want?” I hissed as I crossed my arms over my chest.

                “I just wanted to see how my baby girl was doing.” He grinned. He looked down at my stomach. “I see you have had the baby…” He looked up at me and I nodded. He started to walk in further but I pushed him back.

                “You’re not fucking allowed in my house.” I snapped at him.

                “I beg your pardon-”

                “No you heard me. Go.”

                My eyes grew heavy as I felt darkness flood my eyes, the bathroom bright lights floating away, my wrist falling off my lap and the bloody razor dropped to my other side. I felt darkness and weakness wash over me like a wave. That type of wave that makes you lose your surfboard in the ocean.

Andy’s POV:

                Amber had been gone for at least a half hour. CC had already left so Amber could have time alone to herself. I picked up Journey and I took her upstairs with me so I could find her mother. I first went to put her in her crib and then I headed to our bedroom.

                I opened the door and I nothing looked out of the ordinary. I was about to turn around till I saw a light flooding from the bathroom. I frowned, knowing Amber hates when the lights were left on, I turned that way. I walked in to see something so horrifying, so heart wrenching, and so frightening…

                Amber was on the white tile floor, with her bleed wrists, unconscious. I fell to my knees trying to feel a pulse. I called 911, I felt like tears were going to flood. I felt like I was going to collapse next. “911 what’s your emergency?” The operator asked.

                “My girlfriend cut herself and she’s unconscious and I need a medic.” I choked out. The operator told me to stay calm and that help was on the way. I then called CC. How was I supposed to tell him that her sister could possibly be dying? How could I make those words form out of my mouth?

                I dialed his number and I let tears stream out of me. When he picked up I didn’t wait for his hello. “CC Ambers in danger she cut herself and she’s unconscious on the floor.” I sobbed as I dropped the phone and cried into my knees.

                Medics came and they took Amber in an ambulance. I had Journey with CC and CC was going to follow with us to the hospital. Doctors were telling me she was going to be fine. She just lost a bit of blood and it made her go unconscious and she wasn’t in coma. But I couldn’t help be miss her so much.

                I know for one thing, all of us missed our Once Long Lost Drummer Girl.