Niall's POV
"Come on Niall, let's go for a walk along the beach." Harry and Liam say and I get up from my deckchair, walking after them. It doesn't take long till our feet step on the sand.
"Had fun last night?" Harry asks with an undertone in his voice.
"Yeah. Kind of." I reply. I had fun to a certain extent.
"You left quite early, why didn't you even say anything?"
"I didn't have the chance to" I grin and wink.
"A girllllll." Liam teases and pokes my sides. I just roll my eyes. "What was her name?"
"I have no idea. I.. uh forgot." I admit. I feel my face turning red of embarrassment.
"And I know why." Harry says. We reach the river that brings cold water to the sea. We all stop walking when we step into the water of the river.
"Me too. You're the only one that doesn't see it."
"What the heck are you talking about?"
"You have a crush on Ashley." they say at once after looking at each other for a second.
"Hell no, I don't."
"Oh come on Niall don't even deny it!"
"It's not true, I don't like her at all, she's driving me insane! Especially with her sneezes in the morning fucking shit." I sort of explode. I'm angry although there is no particular reason to be.
"I told you this would happen." Harry whispers.
"That I'll get mad when you tell me things I should know myself if they were like that?"
"Calm down Niall and listen. We're not the only ones that notice. Pascalle and Sarah already talked to us about it cause they think Ashley has a crush on you too. Do you realize what you actually do to her? She keeps being nice to you and then you just push her away! What is wrong Niall?"
"She's a model. That's wrong. I hate models. They're all mean bitches who don't care about anything than their looks and just about themselves in general."
"What are you saying?" Liam asks confused. He shakes his head as well as Harry.
"I'm just telling you the goddamn truth! If you weren't so blind you'd see it too!" I yell. People start to look at us so I lower my voice. "I think we should go back now."
"You're the one who is blind Niall." I don't react to it I just keep walking back to the deckchairs. I clench my fists to get rid of the anger.
When I lay down, Ashley still isn't here. Haven't seen her all day but why should I actually care about her. I plug my headphones in my phone and listen to music. Heart Out by The 1975 starts playing and I close my eyes enjoying the heat.
I drift off to some dreams when the song changes. They are about last night. What happened keeps repeating again, and again and again.
I'm ripped out of that nightmare when my phone starts to buzz. I look at the caller ID. It says Mum. Of course I accept the call.
"Mum? What's up?" I ask worried.
"Honey can you please get somewhere where we can talk without anyone hearing it?"
"Now I'm scared. Give me a second... okay now tell me."
"I don't know how to say this, your grandpa, he... he died last night." she says and I can tell she's crying.
"This is a joke, isn't it? Tell me this is a joke." I beg.
"No. I'm so sorry."
"It's okay, I just need to clear my mind. I'll call you later okay?"
"Yeah. Talk to you later." she hangs up and I start to sob. Tears are rolling down my cheeks. Gladly I'm in the hotel room where nobody can see me. Ashley isnt here either. I wonder where she is. Nobody has seen her since last night.
I wash my face and dry it with a towel.
"Look acceptable Horan. Nobody should find out about your grandpa." I whisper to myself.
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I try to act casual at dinner. I eat a lot as always, just that I rather have to force myself to put the food in my mouth. I could vomit right now but I ignore that feeling.
Ashley showed up now too, apologiizing for just disappearing.
"That's a beautiful tattoo!" Pascalle says when she looks at Ashley's left arm.
"Thank you, I thought I might get one as I felt like doing something crazy."
"Does it symbolize something?" she wants to know then.
"Yes. It represents freedom. Like, the mental freedom if that makes sense. If you're free in your mind you are open for new things which I want to be."
"That's amazing." Pascalle mumbles.
"Why haven't you said anything? We could have gone with you." Eleanor tells her.
"I guess I just wanted some time alone. Was a hard night." Ash says, almost whispers.
After dessert we're all going to the beachbar. Everyone is having fun but I feel so left out. Not because of them but I want time alone. That's why I walk to the part of the beach where nobody else is. The sun is going down, such a beautiful view.
After a while just staring at the water sitting on the sand someone places their hand on my shoulder.
"I was looking for you." she says softly. Ashley.
"To tell me something about last night?" I ask.
"No."
"Why else?"
"Something is wrong. I wanted to ask what it is." Ash sits down next to me giving me a glass with a clear liquid. I smell it and notice that it's vodka. What else.
"It's nothing."
"Don't be such an idiot. Do you think I don't know you're lying?"
"Okay fine. My grandpa died. Are you happy now? Is that what you wanted?" I snap.
"I'm so sorry." she replies softly, not mad at all and hugs me tight.
"I just don't understand one thing."
"What is it?" she asks me. I look directly into her light blue eyes. They have about the same color as mine.
"Out of 9 people, the one who knows me the least, which is you, notices that something is wrong. I don't get it. We don't even like each other."
Her eyes are watering as she tries to find words to speak.
"Niall, have you ever, ever, thought about the fact that I care about you?"
~ AN: hello ☺ this chapter is really emotional idk i cried while i was writing :$ picture of the tattoo is on the side yay please vote and comment!!! ily x
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Fiksi Penggemar"I wouldn't date a model because models are perfect", he said. Will One Direction member Niall Horan change his mind when a very special model crosses his path?
