Dated: 03 July 2002
Hello,
it's an awkward hello, by the way.
I would like to fool myself that I have no idea why I am writing this but deep inside, I know that's not true.
The truth is whenever you're in my mind, I always have this urge to write even the smallest things and share with you all down to my tiniest, mundane thoughts.
Because it is you. It is you we are talking about.
My thoughts are all about you. Always been you, from the past until now.
The reason why I never feel lonely all this time is because I know you are also looking at the blanket of stars the same as mine.
Whenever I walk alongside the pavements with the city lights hovering above me, I can see you in the distance, although, you aren't really there.
And as cliche as this may sounds, these hands of mine keep on missing the feeling of your warmth even if I never felt it in the first place.
Honestly, I want to make a confession. I recently develop a new habit. One that I think you'll never thought I would. But here's the thing, I am developing this habit of looking forward on what we are going to have after you read this. I'll admit, I am nervous. But I know you will just going to melt all my worries with your gaze.
And seeing the endless horizon of what our tomorrows may bring, it honestly does not make me anxious.
Because I know you are in my future.
Funny, isn't it, on how I can see you in every aspect of my life when you're not even here with me?
I can't say this in front of you but I hope you can feel how I am yearning for you. But know that doubt has no room in my mind because I know I have you.
And if it is still not clear with you, I would like you to know that my answer is yes, Abstal.
You know where to find me. See you soon.
Tuo amore,
Catalina Juliet S.
