Confessions 1

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by fortess

by fortess

Sad news and Bit of rant........ ...😞😞😞😞😞😞

I have not make any friends. Mum told me too and I thought I did. Honestly,I don't really know how and I'm not a talkative person at first . Maybe my unfriendiness is showing. I literally don't make any sound unless people respond to me. What makes it worst is that I don't know what topic is out there.

I did my first training before he holidays and I still feel lonely. I have no friends and no guy around my age likes me. It's so much better when you're on a messaging website. Maybe I will get a virtual boyfriend, none at all or buy all cats and then eat me when I'm dead. #sadlife #suckstobeme #singlepringle #foreveralone

My sexuality is somewhere between definitely straight and incidently gay. I will be dating men but sometimes I want to kiss women on the lips. Dating is not really in mind for women for me. Men feels right, women feels wrong and bit repulsive.

That's sound so homophobic tho. As many girls who read my diary and mum calling me gay, they are probably right or wrong.

Honestly, I don't they're right. I write about how lesbian, gay, asexual and bisexual relationships are great. Being queer and so open to different sexualities and polygamous relationships is just weird.

And I bash Ezra Miller about some of quotes his says about something I don't remember. All I know that he trying to sound intelligent by using big words in the wrong context. Smoking weed got me mad, very mad.

What he said that he smokes moderately..I got pissed. You know what's funny, every smoker says when they're addicted to that shit. And Hetero-Patriachy, only straight white males destroying the world..like TF (how about gays, trans, lesbian, bi, queer people, men and women of different race. Ben Affleck and my sexy boo Henry Cavill, Ray Fisher, the sexier hairy boo boo Jason Mamoa? Gal Gadot knows what the hell he says and she uses different words.. my smart Wonder Woman. Ezra is hairy as f*ck and looks like an unattractive greasy transvestite burrito. Tom Hiddleston and is my attractive beard up taco man who is a gentleman, soft kitty and sweet.

What makes it ten times worst is about he wants to go back to the when the world was less dangerous and horrible (1910-2010).

Nope, I'm happier. We have sexuality rights, women getting more jobs, interracial dating is more prominent, different races are not really a minority, healthcare and technology is advance, the world is a bit safer, people speaking out from rape, abusive relationships and etc.

Yes, Trump had bring out the worst of America but u know what.
Suck.
It.
Up.
And Fight.
2 years left and we throw him overbroad by voting him OUT.

What makes it ten times worst about the sexuality is that I compare it with my change of career choice. How telling my parents that I want to be the real me(🎬🎭). Not someone else(hence the Mulan song, "Refections." I listen to this shit every day in that time.)

My mum tells me that I'm not feminine enough so I thought that was one since she knows me so much . I have no boyfriend or girlfriend for like 18 years of my life. I used to go to a girl's school.. Don't you think I would be dating one already.

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Wakanda stupid question is that? Even lesbos dressed more girly than me and BICC I'm jealous. And finally, Thor. MCU Thor, he is hot but not as attractive as Loki. Thor got hotter in Raganork. Buzz cut fits him. Everyone crushing on him but I was like ummm..no. Then I see Holland and Hiddleston. Boy, when I saw the actor I was like 😵😵😵😵👅👅👅👅👅💦
Hot pockets. Before that I was like I am gay. Everybody love this nigga is a sexual way. I was like he's hot but he's too bulky.

Yup, I do think I'm straight.