A Guy Like You #toalltheboyscontest

Dear #46

For me telling someone I like them will never ever be easy...which is why you will never see this letter. People say it takes 4 months to fall in love with someone, but when I look at you I feel a rage of fire in my cheeks and there's a certain warm feeling I get in my heart. Normally I'm not the kind of girl to like "the guy on the football team" but there's just something special about you, #46.

     As much as I would like to believe that you're different than the rest I can't because I'm too scared to just be within 5 feet of you. It's like there's two giant magnets facing the same way pushing each other apart, no matter how hard someone tries to put them together. It kills me.
       
     I'm guilty of admiring your appearance from afar, your soft brown eyes send waves of electricity through my veins, and your smile is constantly shooting bullet arrows straight through the center of my heart causing butterflies to burst into a flutter in my stomach. I like to fantasize about what life would be like if I actually decided to walk up to you and we'd fall in love instantly and live happily ever after, but that's unrealistic and in the end I know it's just a fantasy.
      
      I'm careful not to step to close because I know  I will panic due to my anxiety, but when I'm to far I feel so empty. To you I'm a normal girl in a normal crowd of basic normal people, but it's so weird that I see you as everything.  while I'm just normal. I mean what are the odds an average girl like me gets an amazing, kind, beautiful guy like you?
     
      This morning when you were walking to the boy's side of the bleachers you moved your hand to brush aside your hair, but you caught my eyes and hesitated for a moment. I found the hesitation rather cute...not to come off creepy or anything. I always fell for the shyer ones, but you just had something different about you.

      So Dear crush, I'm sorry for not confessing.
I'm sorry for being so shy. I'm sorry for being normal. I could go on forever, but I'm not sorry for liking you and I'm definitely not sorry for writing this letter. I love you #46.

                                                                                   - C