The Nothing Book

Introduction

I didn't want to hurt those people..

I didn't mean to make them scared...

I didn't plan out what I did..

I just did it.

I was scared and I am sorry that I hurt those people. But I did it because they wanted it to happen. They turned me into that monster, that creature that I hate. I was made like this. I shape myself to fit peoples needs. 

I shape myself so that others can use me. I choose to be used. 

No one understands it though. Even if they say they do and they want to help, they never will. Because they're not me. They dont know what goes on inside my head. My head is a disaster. I am a disaster. 

I am a lie.

I am a monster.

I ruin peoples lives.

People want to hurt Donghyuck.....so Donghyuck is going to let them hurt me.

Because?

Because it's the only way I feel loved. Its the only way I get the attention I am desperate for.