My Arrogant Mate Is An Alpha Jerk [Book 2 of Alpha Mate Trilogy]

Chapter Eighteen: Glad You Made It (Damon's P.O.V)

She was so upset and I could nothing to help. She was sad and I understood, she missed Ella, and I missed both the Alphas. She cried forever about anything and everything that reminded her of Ella and it took every ounce of my being not to send more search parties to look for them. To make Row happy again, but we just can't find them. I lost their scent and we've been chasing our tails for over a month and the worse is becoming more evident.

She laid on her side, hair freshly washed in that field poppy shampoo I liked so much. She wore one of my shirts, she said she liked the smell of me when she slept because I would leave and do the outer perimeters while she stay here and did the inner. She's been strong, but not as cocky, but that was understanding given the circumstances. She hasn't eaten, and sleeps all day now. I've taken over all assignments and she didn't even fight with me over them. I'm losing the Rowan I felt in love with.

"Row," I called and she ignored me. "Row."

"Yes Damon." She said sluggishly, turning to lay on her back and face the ceiling.

I ran my fingers through her hair. "We'll find them."

"They're probably dead," She said. I hope they are."

"Rowan." I growled.

"Not in the way that you think," She explained holding my face in her hands. "They're probably being tortured. Ella's probably being raped and we're just lying here, doing absolutely nothing to find them."

"We are."

"No we're not or we would have found them!"

"Row," I grabbed her hands. "We'll find them."

"They're dead. I sat here and did nothing."

"You did everything you can."

"I did nothing!" She shouted jumping up and snatching clothes that laid on the floor. "Why can't you hear him?"

"I don't know. If he's too weak, you lose connection."

"I have to look again."

"You've look over a dozen times."

"I need to look again!" She screamed tears streaming down her face. I got up and kissed her, nodding.

"We'll go," I nodded wrapping my arm around her slim waist. "we'll look again okay?"

She nodded and held me tight while we hugged. She raked her hands through my hair and nuzzled her face in my neck.

"Can you imagine that you hated me months ago?"

"Not anymore," She leaned back. "But you've changed a lot Mister."

"Me? No."

"Yes," She kissed me again. "You have. You're all soft and cuddly."

"Soft?"

"Yup, you are and so much less of a cocky, sexist prick."

"I'm not soft, maybe have a better, logical reasoning, but I. Am. Not. Soft."

"Like a little kitty cat."

I smiled and picked her up roughly and slammed her down on the bed. "Take it back."

"Never," She laughed.

" Well then," I slid her down and bunched her underwear in my hand. "Maybe I have to show you I'm not soft."

"Nope," She said pushing me off. I sat up growling; it's been almost 5 weeks and Rowan has been shrugging me off. I mean I passed it off as she missing Ella, but it's been intentional even before Ella and Markus were missing, she's been leading me on and then just pretends like I'm not horny. I growled and grabbed her.