MaNan: We Aren't Meant To Be Together

Chapter 8

Manik

Going away from Nandini wasn't easy, staying away was even more difficult, but being in front of her and have her ignore me is worse than anything.

From the time mom had told me that we're coming back to India, I had this never ending smile on my face.

So many thoughts were running in my mind, all of them having Nandini in it.

I knew, it wasn't going to be easy to enter in her life, but I was determined to do anything to have her back in my life.

But for that, I needed to know how she is now, what kind of person she has become, how many friends does she have.

And I did the first thing that came into my mind. While mom is staying in Delhi from some weeks, I came here and stayed in a hotel while spying on her.

I know it sounds creepy, but at that moment that's the only idea I got, so I used it.

When I first saw her, I couldn't believe my eyes.
Her beauty is touching just another level.

Her doe eyes have only got bigger but her nose and cheeks are still the same.

She's got more mature and, from what the principal told me, sha has become one of the toppers in her school.

I still remember her whinning everytime the teacher gave her homework and now, she's the best her college has.

Even though I had already completed my college, I knew, I'll have to get into this one, or esle, there was absolutely no way to get close to her.

Maybe I shouldn't have entered, because it's been nothing else but a bumpy ride.

Half the time, I don't even understand the teachers and the other half, girls don't leave me alone.
And same goes with Nandini, half the time, she's so concentrated on listening to the teachers that nothing else matters to her, and the other half she mostly spends it with her friends.

That doesn't bother me as much as that Aryaman Khurana does.

That dimwit of a guy has to always be around Nandini and has to always make her smile, making me burn inside unknowingly.

But, can I blame him for this?

I know I can't.

Nandini is the prettiest girl I've ever seen, she doesn't even need to try to be one.

Her simplicity is enough to make an arrow go through one's heart.

And let's not even start on how beautiful her smile is.

I wish, she always stays happy, but that's not gonna happen if I'm around her.

But that Aryaman guy can defintely make her happy and he does it all the time.

Everytime I've seen them together, there's nothing I've wanted more than to to be in the place he is today.

He has earned it, Manik, unlike you, who just gave up on her so easily.

I haven't given up, I can never give up, but I just want her to be happy and if she's happier without me, so than be it.

I get up from the bed, wiping the corner of my eye and pick my bag to put all the books needed for today.

I look at my to-do list for the last time, making a mental note of leaving school earlier today to pick mom from airport.

I walk down the stairs and directly into the street, after locking the door and plugging my earphones in, letting the music flow and take over my mind.

I take a ten minutes walk to Nandini's house and hide behind the usual tree which allows me see her, but blocks her vision of this side.

This has been my routine since the day I came here, hiding behind this tree and watching her go to school every morning.

Even though, I've never followed her to college because I always get my coffee before going there, but today, I really wanted to do that.

I want to look at her as long as I can, because once she sees me at collge, all she's going to give me are disgusted looks, that prick my heart every single time.

In less than a minute Navya knocks the door breaking my trance, and Nandini opens it directly giving Navya a hug.

They stay in that position for a while, none of them bothering to break.

I smile to myself seeing their friendship, which is one of the best things Nandini has in life right now.

I know, Nandini has met Navya after I was gone, because before that only I was her bestfriend.

My smile drops a little at the memory, but none the less, I maintain my firm site and look back at them, only to see they've pulled apart.

Nandini closes the door and they start walking towards college, when Navya breaks the silence, "Nandini, hum dono jaante hain ki tum thik nahi ho."

Nandini instantly looks into Navya's eyes but as always, she stays clam and continues, "Main ye nahi keh rahi ke tum mujhe sab kuch batao, bass itna chahti hoon ke tum thik raho and vapas se wo happy wali Nandini banajayo, aur uske liye hum kuch bhi karenge."

The little smile I had on my face falls off quickly, whilst Nandini's eyes get moist listening to her best friends concern.

The only reason why Nandini is not happy and her eyes are gloomy most of the time, is me.

I'm the fucking reason why she's not being herself.

I hate myself a little more every time I see her with tears, which have my name written on each one them.

I stay rooted to my place for longer than I expected, because when I look at their way, their gone.

I did a mistake. A huge mistake by coming back.

Maybe, I shouldn't have come back, or at least, not go in front of her.

I thought, she would forgive me for leaving after I tell her everything.

I thought, that maybe, she still is my best friend, maybe she still is my little Cupcake.

But no, everything has changed, she is changed.

She is no longer the girl I used to know.

Maybe, I should just go back and let her live her life like she has until now.

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I know, I'm very late, but studies are priorities.

Sorry for that!

Thanks for reading. xx