It's Complicated.

It's Complicated.part 11.

"Fine," I acted like I was mad.

"If you really want me to tell you that bad I will," he gave me a worried look.

"I was joking, haha, but it would be cool if you did," I smirked.

"ugh, I do but I don't," he laughed.

"Just say it! It's not like I'm gonna judge you or something," I laughed.

"You might though!"

"I pinky promise I won't!" I held out my pinky.

Shawn gave me a skeptical look."Come on please!" I begged.

"fine," he finally said and we linked our pinky's.

"Well!?" I laughed.

"okay," he took a deep breath,"I guess it's because I like you. I guess. I don't know. You like Taylor so it's okay."

"Shawn it's complicated. I'm being completetly honest I like you too, but it's very very complicated. I mean I met Taylor first and all that and I thought I liked him a lot and I fell for him but then he did what he did. I mean I still have feelings for him, yet I don't have feelings for him," I sighed. Maybe I didn't want to know. I pulled into my drive way. After a couple minutes of sitting in my car in silence Shawn finally replied.

"yeah, I guess," he sighed.

"please don't be mad at me; I'm just so confused right now."

"I'm not," he looked out the window.

"yes you are," I put my hand on his shoulder.

"No I understand it's fine. I can wait."

"That's the thing you shouldn't have to, look," I held my phone by him I was trying to show him the message Tay sent me. He read it and gave me a weird look.

"What?" I feel like a horrible person I just want to move and never come back here. I wish I never moved I wish I never met these famous people that are easy to fall in love with.

He opened his mouth to say something then closed it.

"You were gonna say something, say it. I won't care. I understand I'm a horrible person it wasn't my choice to move here and meet all of you guys. That was not the plan AT ALL. I was supposed to come here and hate it and want to move immediately but that's not what happened what happened instead is I fell for a boy and then another boy with an amazing voice. I got heart broken and then went to Taco Bell with you and fell for you even more. Then you like me and it's overwhelming because you're so amazing and you're so sweet. You're a great guy Shawn not just great amazing guy it's hard to explain how good a guy you are."

"Thank you Maddy. Just think about and you're amazing too. Thanks for understanding and not judging me," he fake smiled.

"Well, I like you too so it would be weird to judge you haha. Thanks Shawn," I smiled and ruffled his hair.

"Do you mind if I have your number?"

"Not at all!" he handed me my phone and I put ym number in.

I put my name as "Bae;)" in his phone.

"good night bae, haha," he laughed.

"Good night," I beamed.

*Morning*

I woke up and it was silent, suprisingly.

I walked down stairs and my mom was no where to be found.

What the hell?

I grabbed my phone and called her. Of fucking course she didn't pick up. I just went in the kitchen to eat something. I pulled out a box of frosted flakes. I put some strawberries in it and sat at the table. I went on instagram, I saw a post from Taylor. Some how I have zero idea how but he got a picture of me. He posted it, I was amazed me how many hate commetns there were. I commented:

"1 how did you get a pic of me 2 why do you have a pic of me 3 why are you trying atm 4 you were being a dick after I forgave you and 5 I can't deal with this anymore I might as well move back Taylor, I'm so confused. And you're not helping thanks, bye."

I felt like a bitch, but he was a bitch to me so it was almost like payback. I sound so childish.

I just want to move as far away as possible.

I took a selfie, I realized how ugly I was but I didn't care. I posted it and said:

"I miss Oregon and I want to fucking move back now! I met two amazing boys and they both like me and it's complicated and I need help! FML."

Right after I posted that I got a text from a random number I looked and it was Shawn.

I saved in my phone as "bae" and text back.

(S=Shawn M=Me)

S: What are you doing today?

M: idk wbu

S: nothin and the guys are feeling lazy. Taylor hasn't came out of his room yet and evrey time we try to tell him to come down he tells us to fuck off...

M: Oh and that's probably my fault...

S: oh.. aha do you wanna hang out?

M: sure what do you wanna do?

S: Mall or something just hang out.

M: Okay well I'm eating atm but once I'm done and I get ready I will text you.

S: okayy

I finished and went back up to my room to get ready.

Hopefully if I hang out with Shawn it will take my mind off things.

I took an extra fast shower I wrapped my hair in my towel and walked into my room to find what I was going to wear. I wore a pair of black leggings, a pure white shirt, I took a black and red plaid shirt and tied it around my waist and I put my black on black VANS on. I straightened my hair and did my usaul makeup.

I told Shawn I was ready and I walked over to Tay's house.

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Stopping there so I don't mix two separate things or whatever yeah okay bye.

I'm to lazy to put my social media today. Ugh.

~Maddy:)