I'm almost insane im depressed and my name is Ally. In my mind you read the stories watch the movies and become more informed. But then you can't always try recreate something from a movie... It just doesn't work something goes wrong like they say the "wrong line" or have the wrong reaction... So never try reinact movies, you'll simply dig yourself deeper till you find the magma inside the earth that will slowly sizzle away at your body and bones till your nothing but then I guess it wouldn't make any difference because I am nothing. Nobody would care or even notice if I disappeared. I may as well not even exist. I'm verging on the point of insanity. I have a few friends who im bound to lose simply because im just a fucking addicted intoxicated ass. None of them should like me in fact they dont. I've screwed up my world so much that I dont need to go fuck up theirs. I realise just how much I don't deserve to be here. I have to leave. Not only will it save them the pain of being around me but also save me... all i do is fuck shit up and nothing ever goes right my parents are just rich asses who dont give a fuck about their insane, depressed and intoxicated disaster of a daughter! i get out my pocket knife and slowly one slit at a time I work the blade through the skin on my wrists and face wearing away at it till my body is a pool of blood. I'ts not enough. I stumble downstairs through a haze of blood, memories and resentment, I wander into the kitchen grab the biggest shrapest knife we have from the second draw down, mum comes rushing in asking what i'm doing and before she has time to stop me... I STAB. Straight through my heart as if it wasn't broken enough already. I drop to floor smashing my head agianst the corner of the bench on my way down a waterfall of blood gushing into my mouth and all over the floor, Then one sound a simple sound that made me almost regret it.... the sound of my mother crying and a simple sorry disperse from her lips....... And then nothing.
