To The One Boy I've Loved Before

My First and Last Confession

Hi....

I know it's kinda late but... I just wanted to take this off my chest.

I've always like you.

It all started when we were just kids, going to church with our parents, playing together, laughing together. You were always making jokes and I felt so comfortable when I'm with you. I am so happy when we were hanging out together with your brother Jake and my friend Lila. 

But as we grew up, we too grew apart. You became this hot, popular guy at our high school that every girl wants to be with. I became this, well not really a loner because I have friends, but I'm not one of the popular girls so... I guess I had to watch you from the bleachers. I sometimes saw you at church and you would smile at me, but I could feel that you wouldn't want to be friends with me anymore... and that made me feel sad.

Then, on my birthday I was so surprised that you went to my classroom. Of course some of my classmates were surprised too, thinking who would this popular guy at school be looking for? My heart stopped when you came up to me and handed me a liter of Coca-cola saying, "Sister Angie wanted me to give you this, Happy Birthday". Wait. Why the heck are you giving me a liter of Coke, do you expect me to drink that large amount of soft drink? But, at that moment I didn't care, all I know is that you were there, talking to me at my birthday. And that for me is enough and made me very happy.

Times passed, and you always missed going to church. Then, I heard at school that you had many girlfriends. And... I was just there wishing that I would be one, too. It's stupid, I know but I can't help it. One day, Lila told me that you and her were dating. I was heartbroken but I kept my cool. She was a friend of mine, and I am happy for you both, even if it hurts.

That made me think. Was it my fault? If only I had the courage to try and befriend you again, is there a chance that you would have like me? Did you have feelings for me too, and only kept it because you were afraid? Because that's what I felt. If only I had acted sooner, is there a chance for you and me? If only...

Now that's all in the past. You're all married now and have kids, while I'm still a single 25-year-old lady studying at college. But, when I think about the past, I always smile. 

So, thank you. Thank you for the memories. Thank you for making me feel happy whenever I see you. I hope you are happy with your life now and may God bless you always.

Love,

The Girl Who Kept Waiting