Hey.
Hey, it's been a long while.
I know that it has been a long while since we last spoke, and I definitely did not expect that this would be the way that I am talking to you now, but I guess this is it.
There was a time that I used to do this; talking to you but without you knowing in a space that only I know of. It seemed kind of stalkerish, but it kind of was the best place for me to let go of what I have inside of me without making you uncomfortable. And yet, I am doing this on an open platform like that now. Part of it is that I don't think you'll ever read it, but more that I know that it is time that I close up this chapter of my life.
When I saw this contest, I thought of literally all of the people that I have loved before, all the way from the first ever guy that I liked for four years who is now married, and to all the idols that I have ever declared as my boyfriend or husband, but in the end, I decided that I would write this to you, for you, just based on one simple reason.
It still hurts deep inside as I type this on my phone.
If you ever chance upon this, and even though we haven't talked in such a long while, I know you're going to feel uncomfortable and feel bad, even if it's just a little on the inside. I'm sorry for that, and I'm sorry for keeping you out of my life. But I think it is better for all of us this way.
So, I'm going to tell a long story.
Thank you for being here with me.
