Trust Habits

Part 1

Awakened by the sound of my alarm clock. I turned over in my bed to turn on my light when I looked at the time: six- thirty the clock reads. Shifting out of my comfortable bed. My feet hit the cold floor and quickly jerked my feet up. Searching in between my sheets for my socks that I had lost in the middle of the night due to rough sleep. Once I found my socks I put them on. Getting out of my bed and walked into the bathroom. Looking at myself in the mirror, I looked very tired so I decided to put some water on my face. Turning on the faucet I stock my hands underneath. Bring up the cold water to my face I felt the water enter my pores. I heard a gentle knock on my door, I dried my face quickly and walked to my bedroom door. Opening it to see my mother Mariana standing there.

" Good morning Ali, your father and I wanted to tell you that we will be working at the office a little later that usual. We left some money on the counter downstairs for you. We Will see you later. Okay?" I looked at her in confusion on my there were staying at the office late but I just went along.

" Okay, I'll see you guys later. Now I need to finish getting ready for school. I love you and tell dad the same thing." She nodded and walked away. Closing the door behind me after she left I walked over to my closet to figure out what I was going to wear for the day. Hearing my phone go off with the the sound of chimes I walked over to my bed to pick it up. Seeing that there was an unopened message, I swiped my screen so I could open the message. It read:

*Morning Babe, Sorry bout last nite. My gf was being bothersome. I can see if I can chill with u 2nite. I'll see u at school. -Jax <3* I looked at my phone in pure shock. Slowly I put my phone down on my bed. Feeling as if someone had took a knife and took it straight to my heart. Picking up my phone I began to look over the text thinking that maybe I've read something wrong. It was all there just as before. In the moment I wanted to text him but I had a feeling that he was going to text me and apologize about it.

After waiting ten to fifteen minutes I still didn't a message. I tried to finish getting ready. Throwing my hair up into a messy bun not caring that I missed multiple chunks. Already had my outfit picked from the night before. Putting that on I put on my shoes. Grabbing my bag, phone, and my keys for school I left my room. Flying down the stairs I get a call from my best friend Emily. I answered the phone quickly as I grabbed the money off the counter.

" Hello... Girl where are you school started ten minutes ago." She added a heavy sigh to the end of her sentence.

" I've had a rough morning. I'm on the way now though." I wanted to tell her what had happened but I didn't that it mattered at the time. I get into my black 67 Chevy Impala and put the key in the ignition.

"What do you mean that you had a rough morning. What's going on?" I told her the events that went on this morning and started to soft cry. I didn't want her to know that I was crying so I tried to keep it to myself.

" I mean... maybe that was for his family member or something. You never know." She said guilty. I pull up to the school and shut off my car. I couldn't think at the time. My vision started to get blurry and my cries became harder. I couldn't speak anymore. Since our class was in the front of the school she could see me in my car having a breakdown. Emily asks her teacher if she could go to the restroom and comes out to my car.

"AliMarie, You have to open the door so I can talk to you." I unlock the doors and she gets in. She tries to soothe me from my tears. My phone vibrates with another text. Emily picks up my phone to see who it's from.

"Jax." I snatch the phone from her to open my phone and read the text. It read...

*Hey Ali, where r u? Ur not here and classes already started. Is everything ok? Meet me in the lobby whenever u get here. Ok?* I look at the text nothing mentioned from the text that he sent before this one. Starting to text him back. I didn't what to say a first so I went with the first thing that came to mind.

*I'll meet you in the lobby.* Pressing enter the message sent. Emily Tries to help me straighten up. She fixes my two-second bun and I wipe the tears from my puffy swollen face. We get out of the car at the same time and walk into the school. Jax standing there with open arms. Not hugging him he looked at me in confusion.

"How could you do this to me" I stated in a sense of anger but didn't want to raise my voice because others were in class. Emily stands beside him as if I haven't told her a thing about what had happened.

"Ali baby what's wrong with you? What do you mean? I haven't done anything wrong." He looks around but can't look me in the face.

"Are you cheating on me with someone else because I got a text from you this morning and it didn't seem like it was for me." I wanted to run and cry but I knew that I had to keep my cool.

"What? No I'm not cheating on you." Emily looked at him in confusion and started to speak.

"Jax, What are you talking about she saw the text and she told me what happened. Your lying to her and this is why I can't keep this secret anymore. It's going to kill our friendship." She looked at me and I looked back in confusion.

"What do you mean. You can't keep this secret anymore because it's going to hurt our friendship" Looking back and forth at them Emily starts to move closer.

"I didn't know how to tell you in the car. I didn't know what to say to you. Your my best friend and I couldn't keep this secret from you anymore. I love him and I don't know what you are going to do about it." I was speechless about it. I started to cry.

"Your supposed to be my best friend. I'm supposed to trust you with my life. Then you go and do this shit. WOW. What a best friend you are" I turned my head and looked at Jax " and you... You tell me that you love me everyday then you go and get with my best friend. You are pathetic. You have no set ground for yourself. You guys make me sick." I turn around and start to walk away.

"Ali...Wait" Jax called out to me. I turned around and stuck up my middle finger and walked out of the school.