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Part 18 - Encouragement

Bucky P.o.V.

I sat in my room. I was listening to my favorite songs. They were very old but this is one of not so many familiar things I remain the same. I was jealous that Tony was brave enough to tell about his feelings to Amelie. Common... he always run away. Always tries to find a way to escape of being serious, responsible, from problems and normal relationship because he is afraid too much. I am still wondering about revealing my feelings to Crystal. I am sure that she is the one I love in the whole wold. But I am not entirely sure if she loved me too.

I was thinking about possible places I could go to when Crystal would say no and say that she never loved me. Or she just treated me as a team member, friend or I am just like brother to her. I don't know maybe Romania? or Poland? or England? I haven't been in a France for so long. Maybe I should make a visit there? I don't know there is so many options and possibilities I could go to. Is not that I am negative about her but I just don't want to look at her everyday and suffer.

I heard someone knocking to my doors. I said quietly that this person may enter the room. I was more than sure that it was Steve. Since I came back he does everything for me to feel comfortable with Avengers and himself. He still does not understand that I am not the same person that i used to be during the war when I last time saw him. I am still more than happy that at least one person cares about me. This is Steve. He always was like that and I guess he always will. When his I noticed blond hair and blue eyes I gave myself mental congratulations for my prediction.

- What is it Buck? - he seemed to be worried about me. I keep thining that I am just a problem for him. Because I am. He got lot of problems just because of me. Sometimes I have a feeling that I should have died when falling off that train.

- What do you mean? - I asked unsure. I really had no idea what is he talking about this time.

- You weren't on breakfast this morning, you missed lunch, you didn't went for jogging this morning with me and girls. I am worried about you. You know that if there is any problem you can always come and speak with me. You don't have to deal with everything yourself. You are not alone. You have me, Avengers and Pack. We all are here for you.

- I am fine Steve I just... I am just worndering where I could posssibly move when she will say no. I can't take seeing her everyday happy without a possibility of touching or kissing her. I would suffer even more than in Hydra. I would not take it Steve. Not now when I am metnally broken apart.

- You have to tell her what you feel to her as well as what do you think about her. I am more than sure that she will say exactly the same thing to you. I just want you to be happy Buck. - said Steve gantly and put his hand on my shoulder to show me that he will always be by my side.

- How could you be so sure?

- I have eyes Buck. I see how she is looking at you. Beside she asked me to come here and speak to you because she was worrried about you well being.

- She worries about me?

- Sure. I told her that I will check on you after training but she said that if I do not come here now and check on you she will cut of my heard and throw it to pool full of crocodlies same as my body so nobody could possiblyt find me.

I started to laugh. I know that right now I should feel sorry about my friend but when I imagined that little woman making an attepmt of killing Steve I just couldn't stop laughing. My stomach was hurting me so much because of my laugh. Huge tears were falling out of my eyes. Since I got to Hydra and escaped from them I never laughed so much.

- You should laugh more often Buck. - said Steave and started to laugh as well.

- I know. But I just imagined her doing all the staff she said to you. It sound funny and if I imagine this it looks even funnier.

- You're so mean Buck. - Steve was laughing as much as I was.

- I am not but a woman nearly twice smaller than you threaten you so much and you actually did what she said. - I couldn't stop laughing.

- I know but think of her and her abilities she is probably 4 times stronger than me.

We kept laughing on and on reminding ourselves of old times we've been through. It was a good day. I decided to tell Crystal everything tomorrow. I just need few other things until I actually do it.

Tomorrow I will find out if she likes me or not. I have a feeling that this day will change my life for ever. But somehow I am not afraid of changes.