unusual ~ (Tyler joseph x reader)

four

Trigger Warning!
Please don't read if you're sensitive to self harm!! (I'll put a • where it start so u don't have to read it if u don't want to!)
Tylers POV:
I felt bad.
I really did.
But I had to, if I didn't sabrina would break up with me.
And if she did, I'd be a loser, a nobody.
But I hated what I did.
I hated looking at y/ns mad face.
And the fact that she's was mad at me, made it even worse.
I hated seeing her like that.

Once English came, I was hoping I could apologize, but she wasn't there. I guess She skipped.
I tried texting her but I got no answer.
I really liked having her as friend, even if it was only for a day. but I guess I ruined it.

Your POV:
I walked home from school in the rain.
My whole day sucked. I was wrong about junior year being a good year.
So far, it sucks. But yesterday was amazing.

Right when I got into my house, I ran up to my bathroom and opened the drawer where I kept the razors.
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I took the cap off my razor and closed my eyes.
Tears mixed with raindrops fell down my face, my eyes still closed.
I moved the razor towards my wrist, quickly slicing it.
I did it three times on one wrist.
The pain felt wonderful.
My salty tears fell into my open wound.
I melted on the bathroom floor, crying, and threw my razor in the trash.🔚•

I grabbed a paper towel and blotted the blood off my arm.

I quickly bandaged it up and continued to cry on the bathroom floor.
This is what all of last year consisted of, except this time I was crying over Tyler.
I want to be friends with him again, but after what he did to me, I don't think I can.
I picked up my phone and read my 30 texts from him all saying "I'm sorry." Or "I didn't mean it"
I decided to ignore it and just do my homework.
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I went to school the next day and decided to go to English class.
Though I didn't want to see Tyler, I also didn't want to miss my favorite class.
I sat down in my seat and Tyler sat in his. He kept glancing at me and it got on my nerves.
"Do you have a problem?", I whispered angrily to him.
"N-no.", he said.
"Then stop frickin staring at me.", I said in my regular voice.
"But I-", Tyler almost yelled, but got cut off by the teacher.
"Tyler! Y/n! Down to the office! I will not tolerate talking in my class!", mr. deck yelled.
I rolled my eyes and Tyler and I walked to the office silently until he dragged me into a separate room that wasn't the office, it was the music room.
Tyler closed the door behind me
"Look, y/n, I'm sorry. I feel really bad and if I could go back and change it I would.", Tyler apologized.
"Tyler, I know. I know you're a good person but that was horrible! I thought we were actual friends!", I yelled.
"We were! Y/n I enjoyed spending time with you but you don't understand!", Tyler fought back.
"What dont I understand!?", I asked.
"If I didn't do that, sabrina would break up with me!", Tyler exclaimed.
"Maybe that would be for the best, ty. She's a real bitch anyway.", I said.
"I can't believe you just said that!", Tyler yelled.
I tear slipped down my face and I tried to walk out of the room but Tyler took grasp of my arm.
My cut arm.
"OWW!", I screamed in pain.
"Oh my god! What did I-", Tyler cut himself off when he saw my cut arm.
I was crying even more now and he was too.
"Y/n, why?", he asked calmly, with a sensitive undertone in his voice.
I shrugged.
I didn't want him to know it was because of him, that would break his heart because he does actually care, I know it.

"Y/n, these are recent cuts... wAs this because of me?", he asked.
I just nodded, tears still streaming down my face.
"Oh my god I'm so sorry.", Tyler said, then pulled me into a very tight hug. I hugged back.
"Y/n, you need to promise me you'll never do that again. I won't hurt you, ever again. I promise. Just forgive me a-and I'll take care of you and I'll make sure you never do anything like this again.", he said sweetly, his voice all whiny from crying.
I nodded, "Okay. Thank you, ty."

"I shouldn't be thanked, y/n, I was horrible to you.", he said.
"It's alright Tyler, I forgive you.", I said, still hugging him.
Then the bell rung and we went off to class, my makeup was a mess from crying

(A/n: oof this chapter is all over the place but I hope u enjoyed :)

Word count: 852 :)