Everyday when I walk by you in the halls or when I see you around town, I try and catch your eyes. I try to tell you in one look just how much I care. Just how bad I long to hold you in my arms and call you mine.
Everyday I watch you laugh and smile when you talk to people. I wish it was me, I wish you where talking to me and laughing with me. I wish I could talk to you and call you mine.
Everyday I think about you, I think about how perfect you are. How amazing and wonderful you are, how beautiful and caring you are. I think about how I want to call you mine.
Everyday when I see you cry, it makes me sad. It makes me hurt so bad because I can't help you anymore. I cant hold you and tell you it's okay, that I'll protect you. I cant call you mine.
Everyday when I sit in my bed at night I think of all the good times we had. All the memories. The car rides, the dark movie theaters, the late night calls, watching your softball games in the rain. I sit and I think, as tears pour down my face, how much I want you back. How sorry I am. I want to be yours again. I want to hold your hands, and kiss your lips. I want to run my fingers through your hair, and listen to you sing loudly in the car. I want to ride home with you from practice when we are all sweaty and gross and hear about your day. I want to talk to you about your family and hear how you got the winning run during your softball game. I just want you M. I want you back. I want to call you mine.
I'm sorry that we fought, I'm sorry I got jealous. I'm sorry I wasn't good enough. I want to be better. I want to fix everything between us. I want to show you just how much I love you.
Yours Truly,
Jailynn
