2D stared out of the window into the empty sea.
He hated it there. It just felt so gloomy to him, and his mind was foggy enough without it.
If he could, he'd leave and never, ever come back.
Without Noodle, everything made him feel as empty as the ocean he stared out at every day.
He wanted to see Noodle. That's all he wanted.
He didn't want money, he didn't want fame, hell, he didn't even want to be in the band at this point!
He wished he had never joined.
He wished that Murdoc never hit him with his car.
That he had never worked at that stupid music store.
But he couldn't go back in time.
So he wrote music.
He wrote songs about how he felt, what he was thinking, what he wanted. He wrote about his hate and he wrote about his love, he barely had any left.
The only thing he loved was Noodle.
Why did he take her for granted? He never realized how much she meant to him until she was gone.
It hurt.
Oh god, it hurt.
He just wanted her back.
He sighed and looked down at the sheet of music on his makeshift desk, which was just a bunch of boxes he found.
Waiting by the mailbox, by the train
Passing by the hills til I hear the name
I'm looking for a saw to cut these chains in half
And all I want is someone to rely on this
As thunder comes rolling down
Someone to rely on this
As lightning comes a staring in again
I'll wait to be forgiven
Maybe I never will
My star has left me
To take the bitter pill
And that's all he had. He didn't care if Murdoc would be pissed because it wasn't finished after three days, he just needed to get his feelings out and onto paper.
He wanted this particular song to be privet, just a song that expressed his love for the young guitarist who died in the El Mañana crash.
That's right, he loved her.
He knew that very well.
Why else would his heart race when he heard her name? Why else would he miss her so much? Why else would he feel like is life was incomplete without her?
He picked up his pencil and began writing again.
That shattered feeling
Well, the cause of, its a lesson learned
Just don't know if I could roll into the sea again
Just don't know if I could do it all again
She said "it's true"
He sighed and looked back out of the window. He popped a few pills into his mouth as he felt a migraine coming on.
"Noodle, please come back." He whispered.
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I hope y'all liked the first chapter! I worked really hard on it, so I hope I didn't misspell anything or anything like that. The next chapter will be uploaded shortly! ^^
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I Love You So Much These Days
Fanfiction2D is getting more and more depressed after Noodles death. He sits by the window and writes songs while Murdoc continues to abuse him horribly. He waits for Noodle to come back, but he knows she won't. Noodle searches the world for her Toochi, hopi...
