Lost wolf-Jethan story

Chapter one

Hi everyone this is my first story and I'm really excited also I put music in because I think the music was a nice touch,okay first off I get all my inspiration form the show Teen Wolf which is we're most of these charters came from some I made up,second most of the people who died in teen wolf are now alive now,Derek is the alpha of them all also in all the werewolves can shift into full wolves and Ethan's brother Aidan death really did happen in Teen Wolf.Now that that's all taken care of let's begin the story❤️

Ethan's p.o.v
"AIDAN!!!!!!"
I woke up screaming and crying like every day and I was alone like every day since.....
My twin brothers death....Aidan he died a hero,I don't want get into the details not now not ever

That was one month ago and everyone else still grieves but not as hard as me,I mean I lost my other half,the one person in the world that would never leave me,my best friend....my twin brother

After his death I felt worthless because I am,my pack and my friends always try to cheer me up but I am lost in so much darkness of pain and heart ache that no one can bring light back into my life

My life is falling apart and I don't even care it is,I don't care that I over drink every night just so I can sleep,I don't care that I cut myself with a razor every time
I feel pain,which is very often,I don't care that I cut myself off from everyone and never leave my house,I don't care that I'm underweight I'm am 73 pounds I barely eat if I pulled up my shirt you might be able see rib cage and my scars which are everywhere and honestly I can't remember the last time I wasn't depressed,not drinking,not cutting myself,being social....being happy.

I got out of bed and went to take a shower that's what I mostly did now since I don't go to school.I wanted to go to beacon hills but after Aidan....,I knew he didn't want to go back to school so I decide not to go it's the least I could do for failing him and our family except now I have no one to comfort me in my grief.

I feel my body shaking I was going to cry again,I don't want to cry again it it's to much to bear so I get off the bed and I run into the bathroom and look for the razor in the draw thethan pulled it out,the razor was stained stained with my blood,It didn't even make me flinch,I pulled up my shirt and cut myself 3 times two on the rib cage the other one on the stomach well what was left of my stomach

After that I took a shower,I was in the shower for half and hour just thinking,"I wonder what would have happened if I had died",this was a question I and asked myself everyday and the same answer always appeared in my head "Everyone would have been happier they would have moved on and Aidan would get the life he deserved except he died and you get the life you didn't deserve,the on thing you do deserve is to be dead".I got out of the shower put on cloths and went into the bed I checked the time it was 2:30 pm I didn't care I just wanted to sleep, I grabbed a bottle from under the bed and started drinking,after my fifth bottle I felt dizzy and started drifting of to sleep.
I hope you liked the first chapter I will be writing more in the future,until next time,Midnight wolf🐺🌹